finish my thesis

This has hung over my life like a big dark cloud for years now. Today I somehow mustered enough strength and energy and hope, to actually work on this again. I spend about 3 hours typing summaries of articles. But the clock is ticking…

My end of March goal didn’t work. I didn’t even touch my thesis. Horrible. Today I had a long talk with my therapist, and this afternoon I finally opened the file again, and wrote a bit. It’s not much, it’s not really good, chances are that I’ll delete it all again at some point, but I wrote something!

Yay!

After my last entry I worked hard for about a week, and then everything fell apart due to family circumstances. After a month-and-a-half of no progress whatsoever, I am now feeling ready to get back on the horse. Today I had a long talk with a friend about his thesis progress, and I’m feeling very inspired by his enthusiasm. Even though the topic is completely unrelated, the process is of course similar.

I want to grab hold of this feeling of inspiration, so today I will restart my work. I will reread the summary I made of the last article I read, and after that I will make a list of what to do next.

My new (small, attainable) goal is to hand in something (at least a chapter) by the time my friend hands in his first draft. That’s the end of March.

This dreadful thing has been hanging over my head for over a year and a half now, and I’m absolutely sick of it. I’ve been working on it off and on, but it’s such lonely work and half the time I haven’t got a clue what I’m doing… I want to finish it all, I need to finish it, and get on with my life. In order to do that, I will work hard on my thesis every weekday (at the least) from now on. I already started this morning (having a lunch break now), and now I’m off to get back at it.

Lots of things I could say about this, things I need to do, or things that would help me, but I’ll do that in a later post.