feel pain

There’s nothing there, nothing at all. I can’t feel pain, however much I try. You might think it’s a good thing, but not feeling pain results in not being able to feel anything. I try so hard to feel something, something big, huge, but it doesn’t come. I want to be overwhelmed by feeling, but I never am. I feel things in small doses that just leave me wanting more. I need to feel something and pain is the easiest one to experiment with.