learn to fence

I just moved to my college, and they have a fencing club! I signed up, and have gone to two meetings so far. =]

I don’t think believe me when I tell them how uncoordinated I am, and how little control I have over my body. I’ve had a few classes, and people with no experience are already progressing past me. I’m going to give it a try, though, and see what I can accomplish. =]

I’ve got all the equipment.
I should fucking learn.

Maybe it’ll take a private instructor
Or learning with a friend.

But I really really want to do this.

I can’t imagine being in a situation when I’d ever be able to utilize fencing skills:

Person: Hey. You tryin’ to start something?
Me: Naw, man. I don’t have my Epee.

I started fencing lessons in January, but stopped going a few weeks ago. I REALLY would like to be a fencer, but I’m irrationally self-consious. There were around twenty people in the club, and all of them had been there for at least three months. It was incredibley embarassing for me to practice lunging, because I didn’t want to look lame. Social anxiety owns most of my life, and I can’t beat it. I’m going to try to start going again this summer. Until then, I’ll just practice my advances, retreats, and lunging so I don’t feel weird about doing footwork that the start of each lesson.