lose some weight

Yes, I thought it was stupid at first too… But I’m desperate enough to get all the ingredients to try this cleanse out.

Basically, you drink 6-12 servings of this “lemonade” for a fasting 10 days. The lemonade is a concoction of: lemon juice, maple syrup, cayenne pepper, and water. I’m DETERMINED with this one. I’m planning to do it for 6 days, starting Monday, ending Saturday. I know I can… I’ll eat a little food, but for the rest of the time, it’s gonna be all lemonade. I’m ready to see this crap get cleared out of my system!!!

I’ll be sure to record my progress along the way… I’m sure it’ll keep me motivated! AJA AJA FIGHTING JACKIE!!!!!!

After nearly 8 months of hiding from the scale, I’ve finally faced my fear. As opposed to my previous post of 96, I’ve gained… 7 pounds.

103 Lbs. 46.7 KG.
Honestly, I feel like shit.
But I’m taking it better than I thought I would.

I guess this just means that I have to restart my vigorous diet/exercise routine again. I’ll lost those pounds, I know I can. Key is to stay optimistic!

The last time I posted, I weighed close to 100?
Well, I went to the monthly doctor’s appointment for my eating disorder and they measured me 96.

So I guess I’m done with this.

Diet. Diet. Return to Diet.

My plan? I can’t be 92 again, I’ll be dead all day. I’ll just lose three pounds first and see how I feel.

Current Weight: 98 lbs
Goal Weight: 95 lbs
Approximate time: 2 weeks

TO BUY -
1) Running shoes
2) Green tea

TO DO -
1) Morning exercise – Take a walk, Bike
2) Drink 8 cups of water everyday
3) 5 Small meals:
- Healthy breakfast
- Snack (Yogurt,fruits)
- 50% (or less) Lunch
- Snack (V8,vegetables)
- If possible, skip dinner (if not, eat ONLY VEGGIES)
4) Rinse all food in hot water before consuming
5) Drink a cup of Sea salt water
6) Sleep at 10 PM, wake up at 8 AM

TO AVOID -
1) snacks, high calorie foods, red meats
2) sitting, slouching

I can do this. I know I can.
I know it’s not my weight that’s bothering me; It’s my insecurities. But dieting is one thing I know how to do and I am going to do whatever I can… to stop feeling like this.

I am a pretty sick fifteen year old. God.

Oh. My. God. American food. KFC, Subway, pizza, buffets… Donuts, crossiants, salads, OHMYGOD.

I’m maintaining between 92 – 95 but I’m scared I’ll lose control and give in. Oh my god.

Just when I felt like winging it, I checked myself on the scale (expecting a 102) and you know what I saw?

96.4 BABY! WOW!~

Crazy nice.
How come I don’t feel that much different though?

So, I guess I have 0.4 pounds to lose and I can be off with this goal. Bwuahah, but I’m scared to go weigh myself in case it bounces to 102 again. Goodness, that scale is evil!

- EDIT 04/14
43KG. 94.8 pounds! It’s beautiful. It’s wonderful.
YESSSSS I’VE DONE IT!

I don’t get it. It’s been about two weeks now since I’ve started my diet/exercise routine. I’ve been eating very healthy (okay fine, maybe I pigged out a couple of times, but it wasn’t that bad!), drank a lot of water, exercised for two hours daily, and I’ve slept early, woken up early. Instead of losing weight though, I’ve gained some – Two pounds to be exact! Makes no sense. Makes absolutely no sense.

Good thing is that I can feel the muscle in my legs now. I’ve always had stick legs and I actually really like how they look with a bit of muscle on them. I also feel happier in general, just with this new healthy sleep/diet/exercise routine. It’s good change, whether the scale shows it or not.

I’m definitely not forfeiting this though. I know I can do it. Stuff like this takes time and patience, right? I’ll get down to 96 pounds sooner or later! It’s the process that counts, right? :D

I pigged out. ;_;
I always eat too much when I’m out with friends.

Food… food… food…

Gotta stay motivated man!
No more soda, no more chips, no morrrrrre!

Binge eating.
Evil.

I shall skip dinner tonight. Or I’ll hate myself forever.

I didn’t exactly gain any weight but my face has gotten noticably chubbier! It’s so frustrating. I’m still at 100 pounds but my cheeks seem puffier than before T_T Everyone’s commenting on it and asking me if I had gained weight… “你好像胖了” Gosh… It’s so silly to stress over something as unimportant as this but I can’t help but feel terrible nevertheless. I wish I could at least be okay with looking in the mirror! >_< This sucks.

GOOD THING is that any weight loss will show up in the face first. :D YAY!

But yes, I’m already dieting and doing more exercise.

I’m currently 100 lbs and my goal is to hit 96 lbs (+maintain).
I’ll try to lose 1-2 pounds per week, so that would be a total of 2-4 weeks.

I CAN DO THIS! For myself and for him, I will try my best!!

My plan:
- Get most of the calories in the morning time, but don’t pig out during breakfast time
- Drink at least 8 cups of water~ 4 before noon
- AM & PM Exercise (jogging and climbing stairs)
- YOGA STRETCHES!
- Allowed snacks: Apples, oranges, carrots, cereal bar
- Rinse all food in hot water before consuming
- If possible, skip dinner (If not, eat ONLY veggies; NO RICE!)
- In bed by 10, sleep by 11; wake up at 8:30

Just gotta stop sitting so much, stop reaching for the junkfood, and say NO to soda and fries. Should be okay!~ I’m ready to change for the better!

加油加油加油！