truly forgive the people that have hurt me

thing to do. especially when you want to move on with your life but you know that that feeling, memory, pain, or person is holding you back. I’ve had many people hurt me in my life and it seems as i get older, the harder it is to forgive the people who have caused me so much unneccessary pain. Jus the memory or the thought of them sets you back, and you can’t move forward no matter how hard I try. It’s like I’ve come across some immovable boulder that won’t budge until all the rifts and pains in my life are gone, or I resolve and get rid dof the skeletons i keep hidden in the closet.
and i’ve learned that about me too—when people hurt me, i cut them out of my life and live as if they were never part of my existence, which ofcourse is not true….and then when they begin to seep back into my present world, i panic. and then the pain rushes in, the pain that i’ve tried to lock away for so long. so in a way, i dont know how to truly forgive the people that have hurt me. heck, i dont even know how to live with the memories they’ve left behind with me. and the more i dont acknowledge the pain’s presence, the more frightening, threatening and intimidating they become. its a sad cycle i put myself through…..but i just dont know how to overcome this….how to truly forgive, let go and move on.