feel better

mentally and physically.
my body has been hurting for 3 months now. back and forth to doctors, and no one wants to say what is wrong, which only makes me feel like it’s all in my head. and that constant pain is not going to my head and making me unhappy and depressed. i want it all to stop!
but i am old, and this may just be the aging process, and what i need to do is just surrender to the aging process.
i will be 52 next week. my mom died at 59. her brother died at 57. her parents both died young as well. and while my father’s side all lived well into their 90’s, i have already inherited my mother’s weak lungs. i know i am not making it to “old” age. No freakin’ way! (i am ok with that).

ooops, i did it wrong. read my last entry under this entry. sorry folks.

i feel pretty damn good. the secret is to do stuff for yourself. don’t let what other people think get you down. i am a whole new person…. got acupuncture, which got me out of pain as well as saving me from surgery. losing weight, belly dancing, got my nose pierced, gone to a few concerts…because HEY!-i deserve a fun time now and again! today i am going away for the night-out of town, no work to do. WOO HOO!

i am scheduled for acupuncture for wed. afternoon. have a dr’s appointment for Thursday afternoon to get a referral to a podiatrist who will do the surgery, to start the ball rolling for approval for acupuncture, to get a prescription for a good anti-inflammatory, and to see if i am eligible for a temporary handicap sticker.
it’s a start.