gorillagal3 in New Rochelle is doing 34 things including…

feel loved

26 cheers

 

gorillagal3 has written 9 entries about this goal

seldom 2 months ago

happens

Sep 27, 10:49AM PDT | 0 comments


i really need this now 7 months ago

i am really struggleing with my inner thoughts. looking for that reason to not hurt myself. i need to focus on my cats and 2 girls i babysat most of their lives. i can’t hurt these people i really think care about me. and the cats—depend on me. i promised them it was “til death do us part,” an di’, not going to be the one to opt out of that one if i can help it. their health and happiness dependes on me.
i wish i had someone that would watch my back, but i can’t see having someone purely for that reason. it’s just not fair to the other person.
so i keep going.

May 14, 04:24AM PDT | 2 cheers | 1 comment


i feel 8 months ago

so far from this.
in fact, i feel more like the Little Red Hen. you know the story—she grows the wheat, and makes the flour, and eventually bakes the bread, asking her friends if they want to help. they say no, but when it’s time to eat the bread (maybe it’s cake?) they all want some, and Little Red Hen says “i think not!”
yup, that’s exactly how i feel.
people like me only for what i can do for them.
and whenever i ask for help, they disappear.

Apr 14, 04:36PM PDT | 2 cheers | 1 comment


nope. 10 months ago

nope.

Feb 17, 2009, 11:29AM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments


i most certainly 14 months ago

DON’T right now.
the only thing that keeps me from suicide is my cats.

Oct 03, 2008, 05:38AM PDT | 2 comments


i certainly don't 17 months ago

feel loved at all.
i feel invisable.

Jul 04, 2008, 01:13PM PDT | 1 comment


this will 19 months ago

never happen

May 04, 2008, 04:22AM PDT | 1 cheer | 5 comments


i feel 21 months ago

so far away from ever being able to feel love again.

Mar 25, 2008, 02:29PM PDT | 0 comments


sometimes i do 23 months ago

but then i wake up and realise i was only dreaming.

Jan 09, 2008, 06:46PM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments


gorillagal3 has gotten 26 cheers on this goal.

 

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move out of my parents' house read the 100 most influential books ever written on Seymour-Smith's list see the Statue of Liberty watch the oc get a tatoo read the deathly hallows be kind to everyone i meet redbandita wants to do first things first see the Pacific Ocean Photograph the Northern Lights. take my pup to the dog park more often Meet someone who has always wanted to meet me. clean my house speak less levitate learn capoeira Chel wants to learn to quilt expand my vocabulary sail Go to Oktoberfest eat more veggies stop eating my fingers get a hammock become immortal kayak love my body get a job
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