Get over my fear of Public speaking

I’m definitely becoming more and more confident. I just need a big audience to see how much I’m capable of!

I have to give a presentation on life in the Regency Era tomorrow. I’m very anxious and nervous about it. I really hope I don’t screw up >.<

On a plus note. I’ve become far more active in my classes. Even though some of my subjects, like Chemistry is full of 30+ strangers D:

Miraculously I haven’t been shy and timid like my usual self. I’m going to start making a huge effort to contribute A LOT more in class! :)

I got my overall English Oral grade today, and I was rather pleased with what I’d received – an A! I know it’s not an A*, but whatever. I find this kinda stuff really difficult; for me to get an A is quite an achievment =)

I had my English Orals today, I worked in a group with two of my girlfriends – we played the parts of three foreigners (Chinese) that came to London to start a new life. and we we acting out the hardships of our lives etc…

I found it so hard not to laugh because we’d put on accents, and i felt so self-concious, but when we got around to the actual performance (in front of an audience!) I managed to stifle the laughter and nerves, soon I’d gotten completely involved in my role and the play, that I completely forgot that there were people there watching me – it was quite fun actually.

I’m quite happy with the grade I got (B+), considering I’m not that much of an actor, and we only rehearsed it once, with just an afternoon to prepare for it – but I (we) might re-do it just so I (we) can get an A or something…dunno, we’ll see.

I think this is a great improvement from how I was when I first adopted this goal, so I’m rather pleased with the progress!

I was asked to read in class a few days ago and it was the first time [ever] that I hadn’t turned bright red and hot. Woohoo – that’s an improvement right?? Hope it keeps up ^^

I’ve got my english orals next week =( I am petrified!!! I have to plan a small talk on ‘water shortage’, lasting 2-3 minutes, and i can’t read it off a piece of paper – i’ll have to be completely spontateous!! This is the criteria:

1. Speak clearly
2. Make eye contact
3. Fluency
4. Interesting the audience
5. Well structured: clear beginning, middle and end
6. Standard english

How the fuck can i make my class interested in water shortages??!? It’s bloody impossible!! It’s going to hard trying to keep speaking in a formal tone, specially without much prompt =(

So basically i’m getting ready to die!

I’ve been SO brave today, i read in front of my french class today!! Yay! It wasn’t as bad as i’d thought it would be, even though it was in a completely different language, and my accent was shit!! I think the reason why i didn’t find it as bad was coz most of my friends and people i’m comfortable with were there, and also i know that the whole class can’t speak french properly – so we’re kinda in the same boat!! I think i need to start offering to read in class more, so i can start building up my confidence!! :)

to accomplish this goal yet as i haven’t had to do any public speaking in a while now (thank God), but my english oral exams are coming up soon so to get a good grade i really need to start improving, because i really want to get an A or an A*, i got a B for my other presentation, which i wasn’t happy about – and that was just with me giving a 5 minute (can’t really remember how long) speech about my work experience, with my teacher and a few classmates for an audience – it’s going to be som much worse in front of i bigger crowd! I am dreading it !

I really hate speaking in front of people, i mean i’ve done it before, but i’ve always had to cut myself several times just to focus my mind on not fucking up. I really hate the feeling i get when i’m up there in front of all these random people… nothing works for me, i’ve tried imagining them in their underwear, that they’re all my mum, but none of them work. And what takes teh piss is that 20% of your english grade comes from oral presentations! :( I really wish i could have the courage to go up on stage, in front of a huge audience, and just not give a fuck!