I understand that taking an online quiz doesn’t replace a diagnosis from a mental health professional, but I had to know if I met the quiz’s requirements.
Do you feel sad or irritable?
I wouldn’t be taking this quiz if otherwise.
Have you lost interest in activities once enjoyed?
No, but my favorite activities are those that I enjoy alone. These include hiking, jogging…
Have you experienced changes in weight or appetite?
No
Have you experienced changes in sleeping pattern?
Yes, all the time. I tend to wake up every night around 1 or 2AM.
But this is due to constant horrible nightmares!
Do you have feelings of guilt?
Yes, all the time. Then again, I was raised Catholic so I’m used to having feelings of guilt for no apparent reason. :p
Are you unable to concentrate, remember things, or make decisions?
No
...wait, I wasn’t able to concentrate on the question. What was my answer? I tend to work on projects in short time frames because I get distracted easily. So maybe I do.
Have you experienced fatigue or loss of energy?
No
Do you feel hopeless, or worthless?
Yes
Have you had thoughts of suicide or death?
I know that I will NEVER act on suicide. I always tend to think of Dante’s ‘The Divine Comedy’ when I think of suicide, and I know that I want to meet my life purpose of philanthropic work. However, I do not fear death. By the way, I find it hard to see myself ascending to “terrestrial paradise”.
My score indicated that I may be suffering from clinical depression. Surprise! I have visited the uni psychologist years ago and I thought I was “cured”, but maybe ignoring these symptoms have made my case worse.
I’ve always felt insignificant though, since as long as I can remember. I believe it’s due to the constant bullying and teasing throughout elementary, being betrayed by best friends, being rejected from all love interests, never have been asked out. I tried going out and socializing with others, but for some reason I have always found socializing to be difficult. My social skills were never worked on because as college students figured out their identity, I worked full time. I didn’t have time to mature emotionally and socialize. And when I did, I always felt that I can be doing something more productive with my time. I’ve always had low self esteem due to not having anyone build my confidence, so I always depended on myself to pursue my goals. After all, no one else will believe for you if you don’t believe in yourself first. But as I get older, I think about how I should be in a different situation, how I should’ve met my professional goals seven years ago. How I would like to have someone around who cares and genuinely love me for who I am. But I’d imagine that someone to end up cheating on me, so I’m not meant to be happy. I strongly believe that I will end up old and alone while the only children I will come across are those whom I intend to help. Maybe I should be a martyr… if I can carry my guilt, I can easily carry the guilt of the world on my shoulders.
For me being depressed means you can spend all day in bed, and still not get a good night’s rest
Judith Guest
