Do my best at everything I do

I think I’m not doing my school work properly. Not lately even. So I’ll start tommorrow – study that is:) Exams are coming up:) Sooooooooooooon:/

Hmmm…yeah well, maybe that wasn’t the right way to go… I realised that I can’t be perfect. I can’t be amazing at everything I do. But, that is just my thing you know – I try to be perfect, I want to be, but don’t really know it. It’s not about being perfect and the best, it’s about geeting the best out of work, studying, sports, sleeping, parties, vacation, reading. It’s about doing one thing at the time. If you want to relax – do it, if you feel like working – go ahead! I always did everything by half. I was studying and at the same time fantasyzing about going out. And then, when I was outside jogging or enjoying myself with my dog I also felt very guilty for not studying. Get it? Bljah!
I don’t want to be a half-person anymore. I’m spendi ng every moment with my eyes opened and my mind on the right thing. Cause, that’s life – and not giving everything you have isn’t It’s not even a half-life, it’s an eternal fantasy…

Yes, I would like to be all that I can be at everything. But I know now, that I can’t do it, while being so lazy and disorganized. I’m going to make a plan. And a good one too… I’m going to do it right now:)