meditate more

So S and I had my brother, mom and dad over night for dinner. I brought up how inspired I was by that girl on the round about meditating, and they told me I was rediculous. That she was probably just high and blah blah blah. Anyawys, HELLO!! Have they ever been high?? Have they ever meditated?? They must be able to answer no to one of these questions… because it’s very obvious if someone is high or meditating. She was in freaking stance and everything… she wasn’t high. Gah, stupid people. I am way overdue for a good meditation… it’s happening tonight. It has to. It has to become a normal thing again—my psych is so outta wack it’s not even funny. :(

I can’t wait! We are going to have a zen room in our new apartment. Gah!! I am so excited!!!!!!

There is this big round about in part of our town. Just built a few years ago. It’s absoultely gorgeous. It’s got a lot of memories. Just about a mile away from my parents house. Me and my friends used to go round and round and round on it all the time just when we had nothing to do. just to see how many times we could go without getting out of it, or get two cars going perfectly so that nobody else could get in it haha good times. Long story shorter—this round about holds a lot of power in my past. Good and bad.

anyways…

I love meditating outside. Absolutely love it. And in the sprinkling rain—it’s even more peaceful and easier to get in a deeper state of meditation. This girl was sitting in the sprinkling rain, with all the cars and lights passing her by, sitting there in the center of the round about in complete meditation.

I was so inspired by her.

I want to be able to meditate in such loud and obnoxious, yet also such serene and beautiful situations as this. And in a place such as the round about, that holds so much power on me from the past—I think it would be an incredibly powerful and moving act.

I haven’t meditated in close to a few weeks. I need to get my booty in gear, as I think that’s another reason I’ve been so up and down emotionally lately. I need the constancy of meditation to help me keep calm and relaxed in my everyday life.

I will meditate tonight, even if just for ten minutes or so. And when the weather conditions are right, I am going to go on that round about, and I am going to forgive all forces around me, while I meditate in such a powerful place.

But I honestly don’t have time to.

I’ve been doing better lately. It’s amazing how much power meditation has on the human psych. I need to continue this, and get better, and make it normal. I really want to do this everyday!! But I am meditating 2-3 times a week at this point. I think that’s a great start. :)