choose one bad thing everyday to find the positive side of

Negative: S just told me how she is really feeling about life right now… I don’t know how to help her… I knew something was wrong, she’s been depressed… but I didn’t know it was this wrong…

Positive: I’m not so sure anymore…

_{And Bethany just completed this goal… now I don’t feel like I have any support… god damn I hate how I let other peoples depression get me down… I just can’t stand the fact that she’s so miserable. I don’t feel I can do anything to help her, I just hope to god I’m not part of the problem and that she will be ok. I want to help her get through this rough patch and get back on the up and up of moods…}

Negative: I feel like shit. :(

Positive: I have an interview for a seasonal glass blowing shop job tomorrow. That would rock! (Plus, besides the extra money for a few months, employees get 50% off all merch. meaning cheaper christmas shopping!!)

Negative: A is in the hospital, so I went to visit her. She isn’t doing good…

Positive: Me and S took our nephew out skating :) So much fun, plus, we found our new sport to try!! Speed skating!!

Negative: n/a- good day.

Positive: :)

Negative: Started the day with a hangover…

Positive: It’s gone now, and the rest of the day went well. It’s Friday so it’s the weekend!! I get to sleep in after the paper route tomorrow!!!!!!!!! :-D

Negative: I’m fucking pissed!! Fucking rental companies are only in the business to screw you over I swear! We fucking cleaned every inch of that apartment in every ounce of time we had for over a week, it was fucking perfect and they say I OWETHEM $112. You’ve gotta be fucking joking me. First off $600 deposit—$200 was for carpet cleaning (which wasn’t even cleaned before we moved in… believe me. You could tell, same as my carpet cleaning friend). Fine, whatever. That’s still $400 we should have gotten back. God only knows why we were charged YET ANOTHER $150 for carpet cleaning this time… and apparently they also had to re-hang some closet doors, and clean EVERYTHING (even the fridge in which we even took partially apart on the inside to get rid of some barely noticeable odor), put up new slider shades cause the others were completely mangled and falling apart, among a shit load of other crap in which I KNOW were perfect when we left it. Did they get the wrong fucking apartment or something? Because that’s all bull shit!! I wonder how much the fucktards would have tried to charge me if me, S and a few other people (none of which were my roommate… grr, fucking roommate) hadn’t cleaned as well as we did.

If there are any discrepencies, we are supposed to send them in in writing… you better believe they will be reading a very nasty letter from me, in which I will be telling them “I am not paying you this amt. as there is absolutely no reason for me to.” Also will go into how when someone asks to walk through in the final walk through, they might want to allow it, as well as send one of their workers in as well so (they attatched the bill from the cleaners) they don’t get screwed over by the cleaning company as well because they totally did. And it’s on their ass because I’m not paying.

They wouldn’t allow me to go in on the final walk through because of “liability issues”. WTF, cause I’m gonna fucking punch the cleaners out when they try to tell me I did nothing when it’s fucking obvious as hell that they have nothing to do??!!

For fucks sake!!

End of rant.

Positive: I was having a great day until I opened this letter… Even met a new friend.

Negative: Woke up late (new alarm clock… apparently I did something wrong) so I was late to work. Meh, I won’t bore you with the rest. It’s all petty.

Positive: I get a measley paycheck today.

Negative: none so far. lol

Positive: I’m trying to find people to help with this

PLEASE JOIN AND SEND!!

Negative: Today was Grandpa’s actual funeral and burial service. Mom, dad, brother, S and me at our new apartment for the by far smallest family dinner of the weekend. We still have boxes, only have four stools for our table (which milk crates solved lol) and only 4 place settings (which we worked out in the end as well).

Positive: The funeral went very nicely. Father Kenny did a great job with his first ever memorial service. :) And dinner actually went really well, and I did an amazing job on the food—thank god.

Negative: Today was my Great Grandpa’s Rosary (I was really close to him). I lost it on a few occasions, but I needed to get it out. The family dinner tonight was with extended family (not just normal aunts, uncles, g-parents, etc. we’re talkin people I have only seen pics of and never actually met as well. S didn’t come to this one… which was good cause some of them were already treating me different as they found out apparently).

Positive: Grandpa is in a better place now, no longer in pain. And I really don’t give a rats ass as to what the rest of the family says.