disclose 43 random THINGS about myself

I got tattoo #5 the other day. :)

I want to snuggle my boyfriend right now and watch Zombieland with him and his friend… but I’m already addicted to 43T again, and I don’t want to leave the computer lol Man I’ve missed this place!!

I used to be completely addicted to my phone. I would freak if someone even touched it as I would write my secrets in the “notepad tool”, plus I was constatnly texting someone or another.

I used to send like 10,000 plus texts a month and receive about the same. I would change my entire days plans around if I forgot my phone in the morning, just to go back and get it. I had to charge my phone halfway through the day as my battery would be dead from all my usage. It was rediculous.

Now, I’m to the point where I don’t even want the damn thing anymore for the most part. It’s handy, yes. When you’re out and about and need to ask someone something. And yea, it’s a way to catch up with people occasionally when you are both too busy to have a normal social life—text when you’re free. But really, I don’t miss it when I forget it places. I do text more then talk on the phone (as talking on the phone is what I do for my current living thus the last thing I want to do outside of work) but I still don’t text very much anymore. I share it with S, so she has it half the time. And I purposly ignore it and forget it at home quite often.

I’m sure me and S will always have at least one cell (if for no other reason then for emergencies), but when my cell phone contract runs out, I really might not renew it. I might try to rid of it as much as possible. :)

It feels great.

My dreams are continually getting worse. And everytime I dream now, S ends up dying somehow or leaving me for some reason, and it leaves me knowing I’ll never get her back. And because of it, I always end up committing suicide in the end. I don’t get it.

They are terrifying and horrid, gorey and discusting, and some of the saddest things I’ve ever “seen” in my life… I don’t know how to make them stop…

Me and S take our nephew (well actually he is her nephew, but I’ve decided he’s mine as well since he calls me his aunt and I just love him so much! haha) roller skating every Sunday night. It’s so much fun! Well, we roller blade, and he skates. He tried the blades the first time we went and didn’t like them, and we tried the skates last time, but were so used to blades by then that we didn’t do so hot. (LMAO that was a sight!!)

_{Sidenote: My mom put me and my brother in skating lessons when we were really little. And we were really good too!! But apparently, you lose those skills… haha}

Anyways, the first time we went, it was C’s schools monthly skate night, so all the kids in his school came. We saw one of the workers there was wearing these bright red blades in which had a low boot, just to the ankle, so he could maneuver better all in all, and it also had 4 big wheels! They looked awesome!!

On the way out, they have a skate shop. We saw the incredible blades!! Asked about them, turns out they are inline speed skates. And they were $299 and up. YIKES! Apparently you can get them with 3, 4, or 5 wheels, depending on how good you are, what you’re using them for, etc. decides how many wheels you want. Some come as seperate pieces, some come all in one piece. There are tons of different types of wheels to put on them, depending on the surface you are using them on… it’s really interesting!

Anyways, since then, we go every week on family night. Family night starts after all the speed skating classes are over for the evening. So during the family skate night, they stop and take a few minutes for just the speed skaters to get out there and go as fast as they want before they let the other skaters back on the floor. It’s incredible!! I can’t imagine going that fast!!

Random fact #23: I used to watch the speed ice skaters from about an inch away from the TV any chance I could and practically drool as I saw how fast they went

Watching this, reminded me of my past amazement of the sport.

Random fact #24: I want to become a speed skater! Ever since I saw them going so fast on that floor, I can’t stop Youtubing skating races!! They just fascinate me!!

Sometime this week, I’m going to go to the second hand sports stores around town and find myself a cheap pair of blades. I’m going to go blading outside until it’s too cold to do so, and I’m going to continue blading every Sunday when we take C. S and I have already decided when our pocket book is much much better off, we are going to sign up for a speed skating class too! I can’t wait! And then, when I have much much more of my debt gone, I am getting myself a pair of those fancy inline blades I want. And someday, I’m going to be one of those fast skaters out on that floor during the speed skater break, and hopefully I’ll be able to join some local intermeral league! I think it would be really awesome!!

I have a weird obsession with owls. I don’t know why, but I love them! haha I have this one on my desk!

I got night terrors as a little girl all the time. But by age 10ish, they had pretty much gone away. Lately they’ve been worse then ever on a nightly basis again.

Night terrors are those terrible nightmares that even if you wake up, the second you fall back to sleep you are right back in it. You can’t get away.

Last night I dreamed that my apartment burned down and everything I have ever owned and worked for was gone. I remember dreaming of trying to get out of the smoking building, waking up slightly and coughing and breathing hard, I thrust all the blankets off me as I was drenched in sweat and fell right back to sleep, right back into the terrible dream again. While this dream wasn’t as violent as most of them tend to be, it really affected me. When I truely woke this morning, I hardly believed it was only a dream for probably a good five minutes laying there in bed.

These are the kinds of dreams I think I’ve also talked about on here before… if someone tries to wake me during them, I become violent and otherwise am non responsive. They are terrifying really. They wear me to exhaustion because 1.) I don’t get much sleep at night as I’m constantly tossing and turning all night. 2.) When I am sleeping, I’m so worked up about the dream that it’s not restful. 3.) It happens night after night, and when my nights are already broken up by the paper route, I lose even more sleep because of them. and 4.) I’m starting to get scared of falling asleep again… meaning I stay up as much as possible and only go to bed when pure exhaustion makes me…

:(

I love Craigslist. I get on it almost every single day. :)

I hate caramel and whip cream.

_{crazy, I know.}

Before I begin random fact #18… Lulu, you are amazing at helping me come up with what to write on this goal… without even realizing you’re making me realize random facts! hehe

So I tend to get a lot of eye infections for some reason.

One time I was standing there after work, just waiting for my ride to pick me up. I felt like something flew in my eye. It just all of a sudden started killing me!! I was standing there trying to make myself tear up and blink a bunch to make it feel a bit better. Well, it didn’t get any better, and the next day I could hardly even open my eye! Turns out—a bug flew into my eye, and it cut it! Then because I kept blinking so much, it’s guts started getting matted in the cut. And then that gave me an infection. Some prescription drops and an antibiotic helped me get rid of it and I’m bug free again lol But man that hurt! I’m always scared when I’m on rides at the amusment park, or even just walking through a swarm of bugs that one will fly in my eye and I’ll have to go through all of that again… no fun.

Gross. I know.