live my life by answering this question every day: "what would you do if you knew you could not fail?"

i completed the first part of ‘if i could not fail part two’. today i told my best friend i like him. he replied, ‘oh, really?’ with a grin.

all the things going through my head right now are telling me that i shouldn’t have done it, but at least i did it, even though i didn’t get the answer i wanted.

i’m not quite sure what i want to do, whether i could fail or not. maybe chaining myself to my school and telling my parents i’m not leaving my sanity (a.k.a. my school) next year. i don’t know what exactly i could do at the moment to keep my sanity in check.

peace.
grow.

i did part two of “if i could not fail, part 2.” and my mom agreed with me. now i just have to do the harder one: part one.

grow.

two things i would do right now if i could not fail.
i would tell my best friend i love him. i know this was on part 1 of “if i could not fail”, but i need to do it. and i only have a couple weeks. wish me luck. please. i need some backbone and some support. please.
i would tell my mom to screw off and let me write. just because i am taking a creative writing class and i write for hours on end, that doesn’t mean i can’t write during one of my independent periods. i love writing and nothing will get in my way of it, but i need to have all the time possible. writing is what i was meant to do.

some support, please?

grow.

unfortunately. it’s really daunting and i know that i can fail.
this goal will still be on my list, though.
growing.

i would tell everyone what i truly think about them with no looking back. i would tell my best friend that i love him and i would bitch slap my enemy into reality.
i would leave school and live my life in the ‘real world’. i would run away from my home for a couple of months with my friend. i would not be scared to let my temper fly because i wouldn’t have anyone edging me on saying, “let’s see what you got.” while i was desperately holding in so much and crying after i left the room because it hurt so bad.
i would free myself from everyone that hurt me and let everything go. i would let everything be.

if i could not fail.