be an interpreter

刚算了一下，我的经济状况非常糟糕，我已经面临要饿死了。
方案一：我9月份才开始领工资，因为8月份11日来上班，也就是少了10天，估计我只能得到2000元。两千元按照月初付房租的原则， 我要付8、9月的房租，就是1800元，如果是这样，我就只剩200元，若是扣税后不足2000，而且水电网线都算上，估计还不够。
9月结余为负数：在200元范围。

方案二：如果只支付1300的房租，意味着，下次10月15日，也还是要交1400，也就是到10月中为止，给了3个月的房租，从11月起，月中给房租900元，水电月末交，这样才稍微正常。需跟房东谈判。
2000-1300=700， 九月份，两次广州行，200+200=400 吃喝即使按7元一天 也要210.手机。通讯费，都没办法有盈余。
10月份，过了7天假期，10.15发钱，3000-1400，剩1600， 不知道是否要上课。看课表安排。
若3次课，略有盈余。约200元左右，补贴上月。

11月份中，还是3000元。
。。。。。。
12月份3500，略好转。
或者搬家住比较差的地方？

目前负债：
何：5000
高：10000+5000+2500
禤：4000
Chen：1300
若干水电费估计500.
合计28300

facing many difficulties ahead,
especially I found that someone study in other major in overseas can translate better than I ,and he is very serious at this job, and he is smart and what makes me feel even worse is that he know theories of translation more than I do(actually i dont know any).so sad.

seems I can never have it done in my life… hopeless I feel ,depressed, and sad

start from small goals:
1.be the top one of the University.
you can prove it through your essays, your pronounciation and your translation skills, you have to show out.
2.be the top one of Shenzhen.
first you need to get a job in a translation company, then you need to get a good job.

it takes a while to form the idea.
I found sleepy,but I can’t sleep, I need time to improve ….....

they,anyone of my friends, my familiy members does not trust me, they don’t think I can become an interpreter, they think I am just wasting my time.
what should I do? and what can I do? just keep learning, keep doing it, hey, do I believe that I can ?I should believe myself since I am the only one believe myself.Go,let them down!

It should be my first goal, most important goal.
That’s why I go for sz,that’s why I pay my tuition,that’s what I have been dreaming about for years!
I love this job, and I am so eager to become an interpreter, it is my life,how can someone does not love his life??