feel the fear and do it anyway

I am feeling more anxious the closer it gets to Kev moving in with me. Only 4 days now.

I’m worried that we don’t know each other well enough. I met him on the internet 7 months ago. But going by past track record that’s a record in itself! I’ve always lived with men before about 3 months.

Although I am sure I will do my hardest for it to work.

my counsellor came up with some ways 2 ground myself when i’m feeling uptight (like tomorrow, i’m meeting some1 4 the 1st time). i got panicky just thinking about it!

1. breathe deeply,
2. both feet flat on the ground,
3. feel the support of the chair,
4. look upwards occasionally. instead of looking down into your feelings you are looking upwards and (apparently) you get a different view of things.

i’ll tell u how it goes tomorrow!

feels like this!

I have got more n more reluctant 2 make phone calls 2 people i don’t know.

but 2day i made 1 2 a place that may be able 2 find me work. and i was confident, calm and didn’t fall over my words. i’m pleased with myself.

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.” – Eleanor Roosevelt

i know it’s 1 of the things i am working on. tho not on 43 things cos there are only 43 things! i think it could have 143 things and i’d still have trouble keeping it 2 that!

i have 2 do something 2nite that will really upset a particular person and i’m dreading it.. but it’s got 2 b done… i hope he won’t hate me 4 it!

is the biggest thing holding me back in life.. and why does it win all the time? because i’m too damned scared 2 do anything about it!
I’m SO fed up with being a mouse I WANT TO BE A LION… RROARRR…!!!