not be afraid of eye contact

I can usually make eye contact when I’m listening to someone else, but when I’m talking I automatically look away. I don’t mean to, and it’s tough to break an unconscious habit like that. I think I’m afraid that if I watch people while they’re listening to me, I’ll see how bored or weirded out they’re becoming. It doesn’t help to look away because I tend to imagine them being that way anyway. It’s kind of like when I was little: if I disagreed with two of my siblings, then they would often make weird faces at each other like, “what is her problem?” Yes, it’s a ridiculous fear!