Be the person I want to be

This may sound strange but I always view myself acting a certain way or doing certain things… but I just don’t do it. I want to be happy, confident, and collected. And sometimes I am, other times I don’t display it in the way I want to. I feel I stress too easily over small things and get so wrapped up in matters that aren’t important. I want to be focused on what’s important in life and what’s important to me and not so much focused on myself and how others see me. I see myself being happy and grateful each day and devoting my time to causes that are important to me and helping other people. I haven’t done a lot of these things because I tend to put my “needs” first and get too involved with nothing. Once I finish this difficult course [which is taking up about 75% of my time] I plan to figure out how I can get more involved and take action instead of being so passive.