trust

Again, boyfriend and I doing much better than (near exactly) 9 months ago. Learning to trust a lot more. He’s been wonderful at working on the things that used to make me doubt him in the past and the things that really hurt me in the weeks leading up to our breakup… Doing things when he says he will. Making good on promises. Doing all those things that show me I can trust him again. I’m almost nearly back up to 100%... and goodness is that a comfort. Not being able to trust someone you thought you were going to spend your life with is a rough thing to deal with and I’m glad I’m near over that. Still working on though, so this goal will stay up a little longer.

The boyfriend and I are getting better. Things actually feel a LOT better from February… but every now and then I get to thinking about what PAIN I was in all March and April… but the wounds are healing and it gets easier to deal with those awful memories as time goes on. Boyfriend has been truly wonderful in trying to help patch things up to better than the way they were, and when he makes promises now I feel better about believing him. It’s not easy to learn to trust again, but if all it takes is time and a little effort to get back the trust we had in each other… I can be patient. :)