compile a 100-things-about-me list

I had my first car accident this week.

Not really something I really wanted to experience. It was so scary and I am not very sure what really happened. I took all the blame, however it probably wasn’t entirely my fault (the man came from behind and hit me after all). It was the company’s car which makes this even worse. Nobody got physically wrecked (except the cars), but emotionally I still feel very shaky and I feel very anxious when I think about it or that I have to drive again. I also feel very worried cos I have to drive a car cos of my work and it might be that the car is at shop to get fixed and I don’t own a car. However I know that I can always rent a car, so I guess what really makes me nervous is that I need to drive anyway. I wonder should I get a job where I don’t need to drive at all (until I get a car that drives by itself, this accident would have been avoided if the car would be smart and the human errors would be deleted).

It also bothers me that I got already a warning from police about my driving habits last week and I didn’t learn anything as it seems.

I know it’s normal to feel all these feelings after a traumatic event, even for weeks, but I really wish I could shake off this feeling I have all the time. I also wish this accident won’t affect negatively my driving habits. I never have been very good driver cos I drive so little.

I guess I need to just go through these feelings and then move on. And drive much more safely in the future.

I like being center of attention

I don’t mean that I necessary wants to be in front of lots of people and everyone to stare me, but I like that I am being noticed. I like to stand out of the crowd. And people to stop and look after me when I walk by :D If I am in a group of people, I like that my opinions are taken noticed. And I love getting compliments. And I love flirting.

If I don’t get attention, I get really cranky.

I have trouble making differences between left and right

I often have to really stop thinking which one is which. Now I have been driving a lot with gps and when the machine says “turn left”, I hear it all right, and then turn to right anyway. Or vice versa. That’s why I end up driving with very odd routes and have to make u-turns…Maybe this is the reason why I have so poor sense of direction

I have two moles very close together in my left hand since I was a kid and that helps me to remember that it’s the left one. But I have to look at it to remember.

I have talked about this with some other people who suffer the same condition of mixing left and right and those usually have troubles with directions north-south and west-east as well. I don’t however mix those. Maybe that has something to do with me liking maps so much.

I have gotten lost in Poland and found myself in the boarder of Belarus

I was with two friend of mine and we were told about this nice little walking trip near our camping site. So we went there and accidentally took wrong direction. Then we were in middle of nowhere and surrounded by very old forest. The sun was setting and we had no idea how far our camping site were. We were also told that it’s dangerous to walk in the forest in dark since all the animals. We just continued to walk the road (which had no lights) and hoped that it eventually would lead us back to the town and somewhere we knew. And then it started to rain. And then we saw a sign that said Belarus, no entry. That was obviously the wrong way. Finally, we saw a sign that said “Grudki”. That’s where our camping site was. We never had been so happy and we finally were able to relax. All of us had been very scared. And rest of our group hadn’t even noticed that we were gone :/ We learned that other group of us had gotten lost to the same place when we told about our little adventure. We probably walked 10 km or so. Now we have been able to laugh about it, but I have never been so scared when I have lost than I was there.

I like leap day.

I think it’s something cool about 29th day of February. So I don’t really mind having a one day more in this year.

I really don’t know why I find this day so special.

I love relaxing in sauna

Wood heated is best. But I like the easiness of electric saunas. And I love that we have a own sauna! I would find it very hard to live in country where are no saunas.

Sauna really relaxes you and cleans you better than just taking a shower.

I always vote in elections

Never missed one after I turned 18. I see it as a duty. And a privilege that not everyone have in this world (sadly).

I don’t like flying

I enjoy a lot traveling, but I can’t stand airplanes. Getting up and down is the worst part of it. Small planes that they have in flights inside Europe are worst. The planes between continents weren’t that awful (though sitting in plane 12 hours wasn’t nice).

And I often think about how much the planes pollute and I feel bad doing it.

I feel that new year is always a fresh start

Which is funny cos it’s just a change of date, nothing really magically happens. But especially this year, I welcomed the new year very happily. I feel relieved somehow for the date changing. I feel that once again everything is possible and I feel that I have more energy. Last year was a failure in many ways so I am determined to make this year my year, a personal success.

I want to stay optimistic and believe in brighter future. I will dare myself to do something that I never had before. Challenge myself. Be the best me I can possibly be. Do something good and meaningful.

Wish me luck!

EDIT: Wind of Change could go very well with this.

I have very poor sense of direction

Which is why I get lost easily. I need to pay a lot of attention to my surroundings for not to get lost. I really should get a phone with GPS.

I don’t usually stress though when I realize that I am lost. I usually always will find my way back anyway.