enjoy life

Today has been so nice :) I had the moment of joy. I really enjoyed being alone with myself, being right here and just enjoyed the warm sunny day at park, watching the people walking past me and the book of insects :D There was no rush, no hurry, no obligations to do something. I wish I could always feel like this ♥ I felt so relax and good.

It’s amazing how much the good weather makes to my mood. And I had nice time with my friend also on the lunch. :)

I really want to live. Do things that I like. Things that I enjoy. Most of the times I just wait for something to happen. I let opportunities to go by. But that’s not what I want! I want to take every opportunity that life has to offer me. Right now I have opportunity to go to Saaremaa, Estonia. Honestly I don’t have much extra money to go there and I don’t probably know anyone who is going. But it combines two things that I enjoy in life; traveling and nature. So I think I am going.

I just had some kind of enlightening. I realized that I don’t take the most of my days. There’s so much things that I could do, so many opportunities waiting for me to reach them. I have worried too much about the future and waited too much things that will happen later. Time won’t go any faster or slower according to things we do or won’t do. Life is what we make of it. Life is right here front of us. Don’t close the eyes from the world. Don’t walk away. Listen what life has to offer. Right now. Today.

I’m starting this page of my life right now. Well really tomorrow cos it’s such a late now. I will do things that I want. Nothing really stops me, except myself.

I’m excited. Everything will be just right :)

“Forget the drama. Focus on being happy“

I had really nice walk alone today. And it I really enjoyed being alive. It was those moments of total peace and relaxing. But then again when I get back to home I was pissed off. Well not right away, after a couple of hours. I am so pissed off watching my friends snuggling with their bf’s. Don’t get me wrong! I am happy that they have someone special, but enough is enough! And I want be all the time out for a walk. I just can’t! This is my home too! All this is driving me crazy. I am afraid that I will snap out to my friends about this and it would ruin our relationship. And I cannot keep all this inside me either.

I just would like to enjoy my life, but it’s so hard cos people around me are so in luv. Maybe I am cynical bitch.

I was yesterday feeling a bit much blue _{like my subscribers at least knows}. Today I feel much better again and I think it’s time for me to enjoy life a bit. I guess that I could have done that magic trick and just vanish without a notice, but I know, at least some of you, might worry about me. And I didn’t want to do that for you guys. So don’t worry! I am off for couple of days to meet my friend to another city :) I’ll be back at some point in the next week.

I can’t wait of meeting her! And seeing that city, Turku :) I have only been once there so there will be lot to see. Well first I have to survive from that train trip :D Oh and who knows who I will meet there ;) I miss her, she’s one of my best friends, and we always have so much fun together. This will be really nice break cos I don’t have to think my problems there. And I can just concentrate to enjoy living.

And I feel really related to this one. I think this is the first time I am not looking for solution from being with someone else. I can enjoy life as it fullest without anyone.

(I’m not sure under which goal of mine this would go, but I think it works pretty well in this one)

This was todays strip and I think it was wisely said.

Why life is so hard? Why I always end up thinking is my life worth of living? God, how much I still enjoy life! Even it doesn’t always treat me the best way, with the gentle hand. I must be a masochist.

What is the meaning of the life? What is the meaning my life? Is everything pointless? I really don’t know. I don’t do things cos I feel that they are pointless. I left undone some that I really should have finished. I don’t like this. I wish that everything would be solved and I would get my rose glasses back on. I wish that I could stop seeing bad things everywhere. I wish that I could stop pitying myself.

I don’t know what I should do. Should I just let things work on their own or should I give the faith a bit push? Maybe I should just relax a bit. Taking too much pressure of how things should be eats all the good things alive. Leaving nothing good behind.

I wish that I could erase my mind of some parts. They say that having a bit setbacks in life is part of living. They say that you learn from your mistake. What if that’s just foolish talking? What if it isn’t true?

I don’t want to end up thinking what if. I don’t want to wake up old and see that I didn’t enjoy life as it fullest. Time is running all the time and every decision I make has it reasons. What if I chose wrongly? I only have this life.

God, how hard living is!

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

I like to see the bigger picture. It’s like if you are looking at the painting too close, you can’t see anything or only a small part of it. But taking a few steps back and looking then, you see much better. And then things makes more sense.

I still can’t see the whole picture. I am probably watching still too close. But I am starting to understand my life a bit better. Life is not easy, love is not easy. But it’s not wise to make things even more difficult. There’s always an easy solution for anything. And I think for life it would be stop living and for love; not falling in love again.

But luckily I am not a big fan of easy solutions. What’s the point in all of this, if I don’t dare to take the risk? Why should I be alive if I don’t dare to live? Life won’t probably ever get too easy for me, neither will love. But I will take my chance and see what happens.