Detox for next 2 weeks, starting Monday

eating grapes and spinach.

Lots of spinach, water, purple cabbage, and water – but I’m having a hard time laying off the caffine.

In order to do this, I’m going to have to make a grocery list, figure out what I’m going to eat and get some supplies. Really need to do this. I will feel one zillion times better, and I know it. Salmon, fresh greens – it will be great.

I’m think of going “raw” for a couple weeks – though not exclusively. I’d like to find a really healthy diet, is what I’d be after, something super nutritious – raw or cooked.

Essentially, I want to get all the sh*t out of my life – but I guess this isn’t entirely possible. And so I will, to the best of my ability, work toward cleansing my body and mind. Need to be more disciplined about this.

Attitudes and beliefs…such as resentment and hostility.
habits, such as chocolate and coffee.

Will go raw for the next 4 weeks.

I’m going to do a water fast this weekend.

this is hardest of all. I am toxic with anxiety and resentment. I know I have to let it go, but a big part of me resists letting it go, which doesn’t mean I’m not letting it go, but that I am going through something here.

I know it’s already started. So much sadness, and genuine hurt, deep and real. I don’t know if a person can “detox” from sorrow. I guess I just try to let it go.

This week I am detoxing from the negative influence my mother has had on my life. I am facing the hurt she has caused me, and I’m not lying to myself about it anymore. I’m also releasing all guilt and all attachment.

This isn’t about forgiveness. This is about acceptance, and moving forward on my own behalf It’s about claiming my own self, and my own life, and letting my mother go.

I have been holding onto her, for better and for worse, for far too long. I want my own life. My mother is not stopping me from claiming this – I am. I am. I feel alot of hatred and resentment toward her, and alot of hurt feelings, and sorrow. I will work through this, and detach from her.

...for 2 weeks, and including my home.