follow through

Has anyone read the book “The Dip”? In it, the author advocates quitting when the going gets tough, if in fact, your not that invested in finishing the task. In other words, “following through” is not necessarily a virtue if you don’t have that much to gain.

I made significant progress with my paperwork and continue to plow forward, through my resistance, which is considerable. I lost a few hours today, ruminating on it, but I just have to keep going.
- get organize
- get in shape
- get published
- finish paper
- revise outline
- employment

I’m going to follow through on getting this place organized, and getting this paper off the floor, and writing up my notes for Monday. Must follow through on detox.

...for whatever reason, I really hate making plans, at least in the way I’ve tried to make them, ie. “work out schedule” etc. I’m just not into – being my own boss lady, I suppose. Yes, I want to be disciplined and healthy – and I am, for the most part. But this and nothing else I have ever done or achieved has been motivated or actualized by “forcing” myself to do it. I’m motivated by what I want to do, and its a strong motivation when I’m clear about what I want. If I want something, I’ll just naturally practice it. I mean, when I stopped smoking, it was because I didn’t want to smoke anymore. And then it just stopped making any sense, and I didn’t do it, and it wasn’t hard for that reason. Whenever I tried to “force” myself – oh, I would for awhile, but I’d always give myself permission to give into the urge.

It just seems stupid to treat myself like a moron or infant – not to insult either – I just want to know what I want, and do it. Following through means this, and not “making plans” etc.
I want to get really clear about what I want, and then I know damn well I’ll follow through. I always have, I always do, as a matter of pride and principle and character. But I’m not going to be my own damned whipping boy.

Need to get moving on my workout plans, and buy a scale. Need to set up a writing schedule of some kind, and brainstorm on my goals. Need to go through my writing, and see what is worth sending out. Need to research funding opportunties.