stay cool because this world might be an illusion

my daughter received a text (again) from her estranged father – we don’t talk at all – i was busy feeling sorry for myself thinking how alone i was, no friends, my mom went to my sisters and i wasn’t invited. My daughter showed me the text ‘this is the last msg you will get from me, I’ve tried to talk to you for three years, I’m sorry for ‘whatever’ wrong I’ve done, my phone number is xxx-xxxx’. It reminded me of how pathetic and out-of-touch with his reality he is and I know how happy I really am without him and his passive/aggressive crap mindplaying games. I was instantly happy. I am back stronger than ever. There are no ‘buts’ in my volcabulary!

I never knew this creation existed before. The colours! The flavours!
It’s better than ice-cream and if there is a heaven it would be made out of gelato.

random things happen and if you aren’t ready you don’t see the lesson or message that is there for you
recently two people came into my life briefly for reasons that I needed to learn from
the first lady was sitting in her truck and just when I drove by she veered out at me, I honked my horn and swerved into the over lane to avoid her, she followed me in her truck and I was a little afraid that she was coming to confront me, I pulled into my daughter’s boyfriend’s driveway to pick her up and this woman got out of the truck and came up to my window, she was very distraught and obviously upset, she said she was sorry she had gotten very bad news from her doctor, I held her hand and kept thinking ‘what can I do for this person?’ Her name is Emily, all I could say is enjoy the day, take care of herself, she left and I kept thinking about her and her situation, my problems seemed like nothing after that.
The second girl was a pleasant waitress where my daughter and I were eating after the Tattoo Convention. I was ranting and raving about my mom, she would come to bring us water, coffee, whatever with a sweet smile on her face. We started talking to her – she noticed my daughter’s tattoos, and we found out she had moved to Saskatoon from Ontario with her boyfriend and her two kids. He dumped her after only two weeks in this new city. She said it like it just wasn’t a big deal, no self-pity, just a sweet smile, she had a boyfriend now and they wanted to get piercings and tattoos. Her wonderful attitude made me open my eyes and realize these two people happened along for me to meet and I should take the lesson that the ‘powers of the universe’ were showing me. Stop pitying myself for my ‘hard life’ and live each day to the fullest. There might be more messages that will come to me but for now that is what I have learned.

we are all in this play and the roles are ones we’ve picked for ourselves and the words and plot can be changed by us anytime we want, we just don’t realize it’s a play and anything goes
i thought i had to play a victim but i can be a villian instead or a evil twin or the lady who has lost her memory and had to reinvent her life all over – yes – that’s what i am reinventing myself!!! this is amazing to me