take more chances

so, I was out. My friends had their fair share of guys for the evening and drunk as I was, sad as I was, I decided to find someone as well. Took me less than 10 seconds when I found Fredrik (not the same as old fredrik, a neew one ;O ). We’ve been to the same parties before, and we basically said hello, and of we weeeent… kissing and kissing hahaha what has become of me?
but it turned out alright, I didnt do anything too stupid, but I followed my impulses and well, it made me far less sad! In fact, I havn’t cried at all since saturday! yippi, that old guy is not really worth my tears.. fk him!

So new fredrik, and 5 other friends crashed at my place. Lets just say he was really cute and a gentleman :) As far as I can tell, he’s a good person. He’s got good eyes somehow, clearblue, energetic and full of adventure haha :3

he really does not..
atleast now i know.
but im really sad.

confessed how I still felt.. even though he might not want me.. i want him still. ALOT

I owned the stage!

I kind of enjoyed it, Matthias is a better kisser than Fredrik. I had been drinking and i sorta wanted to, yes. I didn’t see it coming, he just leaned in again and again and I just went with the flow, until I asked my friend to drag me away from him and she did after a while. Lets face it, I sort of have a crush on fredde. but he’s been kind of distanced these late weeks and we’re not a coupple or anything, so no harm done. I want to show him that I can get anyone I want I guess… It’s such a shame that Matthias is so good looking too..

Am I a rapper? Not at all, is this then a challenge? OH YES! Gotta love it :) It is not too serious, but I’m the only voice heard, the others from my team are doing a drama. I’m gonna go buy all the right clothes, let it out, embarass myself, make the crowd laugh and enjoy! I’m soo looking forward to this, and at the same time it’s a big challenge :)

I gave myself a friendly push in the back, and I went on a second date with this guy.. sorta a long second-third date because we were together all weekend :) We had a good time with friends

I can’t really plan a “blind date” I always chicken out in the last minute and tell the guy some lame excuse. Now that I saw the opportunity I took it and told him to come to the party thingy^^ I think I’m a bit interested in him… :3 he want’s to meet again, but im not sure I can, I would just blush to death and hide in my bed under the covers.. oh me. :O :$

He gave me a ride home, after my brother freathened him, saying “You take my sis home alright, else I’m gonna come and cut you, you understand that?”
I love my brother<333 :)

Had to make a call to one of my customers, and it felt alright :)
I have a slight phobia of talking to people on the phone but I just made the call whitout further hesitation, I probably made a fool out of myself, but it turned out I got the job that will pay me alot and I’m meeting the customer who hired me tomorrow :)
Once again IMAGINE what I would have missed if I just hadn’t gone for it!
Bless!
Helena

Drank without parents knowing
Slept next to a guy (not alone though) prob against approval, also them not knowing, and got away with it. I tried my luck to see if he was interested in me, looks like it! We’re gonna meet again tonight…
Staied up all night talking, check.