Talk to him about what's going on with us

The end of it is, after 2 years of hooking up we grew very close over the summer, dispite going off to work and being away for a week or more at a time, we spend all the free time I had together and were very open about our relationship with people like his housemates. I’d be home for less than 2 days between festivals sometimes but just spent all my time there. I’d asked him what he thought we were and we didn’t come to any conclussion. It kept going like this, we said we ‘i love you’. after this he asked me to be is girlfriend. :D

DONE!!!!

O my god, this is like, done!

I feel as though we are getting closer. Yesterday he came round to mine for a curry that I cooked. He bought beers with him. We chilled out with my housemates and held hands in front of them. After they’d gone to bed we kissed and went to my room.

‘Do you wanna smoke some weed and fuck?’, he said.
So we did.

He basically admitted to being emotionally stunted, a guys guy who don’t discuss their problems or feelings with their friends.

So we’re kinda back on. Again. Are things any different? I think so.. Communication when we aren’t together is neg on his part. Things are good when we’re together. We took me on a midnight walk to look at stars.
I asked how long we had been doing this and he said nearly 2 years.. I said, ‘I don’t know what that means’ and he said he didn’t either.
We might go to Paris, though I’m not going to read into that suggestion because I still feel though I’ll be disappointed and let down yet again.
The best advice I’ve been given is just to GO FOR IT.

We haven’t slept together in over a month. More acctually. But I spent an evening with him tonight and it was very nice. It’s not awkward at all and though I still want him there is no real expectation of sex or anything. It’s just really nice to actually be able to TALK and be friends

Read some old journals from last year and it was ridiculous – it was the exctly the same thing going on and feelings I had about it. And talked to my friend who recently told her ex who she was still friends with to get lost, so if she can do it, I can. After the next time we sleep together I have to.. have to tell him that I like him and that I can’t sleep with him anymore cause it’s killing me cause I know he doesn’t feel the same. I don’t want to do it.. I don’t want to stop because I like him but at the same time I do because it’s torturing me. don’t know how to go about this

I haven’t done this and probably never will cause I know he doesn’t care. He stood me up on my birthday and didn’t apologise until I confronted him. I asked him to make it up to me and he said he would but he went home. I can’t do this anymore. Respect is the very least he could give and I’m not even getting that. I know I deserve better so I dunno why it hurts so much. Him not being here and everyday wanting to talk to him and not is killing me. I’m not going to play him at his own came and come waiting for him to chase me because I know he won’t and I don’t want to play games. This is been going on for so long and we’ve never even talked about it.
It’s so fucked up liking someone who you have a casual sexual relationship with.
There’s nothing I can really do now. I’m still debating with myself if I should talk to him over the holidays or not. Maybe I should listen to my friends and family for once and not.

...before my feelings get out of hand.

It’s time!!!!!!