be a nicer person

You see the character in films who is known for how lovely she is to everyone, always willing to help, never grouchy and always genuine. I want that to be me. I want to be known for being nice. I want to be the one that people are always praising and never upset anyone. It sounds very vague and almost pathetic to just want to please but I genuinely want that to be me.

I’m not a nice person just when I’m upset about things I get a bit bitter and it usually gets taken out on the people I love. For the past week I’ve really been trying to bite my tongue and its amazing how fast the bitterness passes and I feel ok again. It also helps in terms of relationships cause where previously there were topics I wasn’t happy discussing I now know that if I take my time over them then I will be able to get through it without upsetting anyone. A good example is that Robbies dad likes to bate me with things he knows will upset me, I call it a form of bullying because there is no gain out of it but where as before I would moan to Robbie about it I just take a few mins time out and forget about it. Result, on the down side where as his dad has been annoying me for two years and I’m getting over it he has started ticking Robbie off so I have to hold my tongue for his sake to. Sucks