learn how to socialize

haha. So does repeated exposure to the same people… forcing myself to show up to where I know the same people are going to be.

I get so nervous when I have to talk to people. I look at anything but them, I say stupid things, I stammer, and I just want to disappear. It’s so awkward.

I like to get to know people by NOT talking to them. I like to watch them interact with other people for a long time before I get used to them and it still takes a LONG, long time to get comfortable and to know what to talk about. I’m a quiet person anyway.