be comfortable with my body

i’m excited to start working out regulary again. i wish the weather and the rest of life would cooperate! i’m trying to be hopeful!

it’s a start… exercise totally helps too.

It doesn’t look like I’m going to complete this goal in the few hours I have left. I’m doing my OR ELSE (joining a support group). I’d love to have you join me! Wish me luck!

http://www.virb.com/groups/38497482

How did that sneak up on me? I’m not totally comfortable, and I’ll need something major to happen in the next two days. I better start shopping for a support group! YIKES!

I don’t seem to be in sync. I might exercise and not diet or vice versa. Today I already exercised. So, I’m going to try not to overeat today. I guess I’m feeling more self conscious because I’m going out on Wednesday—which I usually don’t do. I’m excited but also kinda want to be invisible. Ugh! So, this fat chick is totally going to rock! Wolfmother!

Already worked out everyday so far! Yeah me! =)

It’s only been a few days of trying to eat better. Hard! Have not been formally exercising, but I’ve remained active w/the kids. Having a great time!

Yikes!

Second day at the gym wasn’t so bad. I did my 30 minutes of cardio and lifted some weights and stretched a bit. My little girl did okay (not great) at the childcare, but busted out in tears as soon as she saw me. I have to remember it’s only an hour. She was okay. So, I’m feeling great that I worked out, and I went to run a few errands. I’m having a nice conversation with the pregnant cashier and she asks me if I’m about to have another one. I HATE LOOKING PREGNANT WHEN I’M NOT! I love looking and being pregnant when I am, but I’m NOT anymore. Ugh! It happens to me all the time! I hate it. It’s hard being comfortable with my body. I guess it’s about being healthy and loving myself enough to transform into a fit person. Studies have shown that someone who gains weight mostly in the abdomen are more likely at risk to have heart attacks. Apple shape—me. Cardiovascular disease is the number one killer of women. So, comfortable enough to not be self conscious, but not so comfortable to be complacent about exercise and eating. Gotta get rid of the Jelly Belly!

I kept trying to avoid my reflection. When I did look, I was somewhat disgusted. Man, the image of me inside my head is much better looking than the one staring back at in the mirror. I won’t go on with the list of adjectives I’d like to use to describe myself. I’ll just focus on that it was a good thing I went to the gym.

This is going to be a hard goal to achieve.