look better

I did my own weave(saving $200)! It looks really nice. Wish I had an actual cut though, cause curling it wont be real fun. I go on another date with Robert tommarrow!
Still a chubby wubby but that is on the next episode.

I am going to stick to this diet. It will be hard, but it must be done.
Yeah i just sit and watch tv all day but now i do 30 situps during commercials.( I usually watch tv from 5am to 1 am)
I ran forever this morning, around four neighborhoods.
then i couldnt sleep cause of the nosie, so went to the gym:15min treadmill, 15min buke, 20 min weight machines, 15min powerwalk @ a 7.0 incline. Yeah come on now what?
Im not going to let that go to waste so i am going to keep it up.
I kinda sorta got a new dude to keep happy!
jus now something with my hair.
soon child, soon.
Really wanna do yoga/pilates but i always feel weird.

Okay im back. I stopped the depo shot! kinda sorta bring my weight to my norm. My scale has said 160 for the past 2 weeks! Given I havent exercised a sec, or really checked my eating, buuuuttttt. I guess I shouldnt be mad. At leaset I am not gaining weight.

Other than weight, I have seemed to try and put something decent. I havent been wearing my fav xl blue shirt with my sweats, even though they are so comfortable.
And I am planning to do my own straw set, but I dont have a dryer. Maybe the salon will let me sit under theres for like 5 bucks!

Oh and I almost snagged a new guy! You know that always helps a girl lose weight. Trying to look cute and stuff.
When I am eat something, I pretend that he is staring at me. And if it is something that makes you fat, I think of him making an ugly face, saying in his head “You definetly dont need to be eating that”.
It is torture but it is helping.

i keep changing my mind on what is beautiful. i have no sense of self or idea of who i am so i mix everything and come out with a big mess. why is it so hard to find what i actually look like?

i ate two chocolate cupcakes and i need to do my hair but whenever i get home i see my bed and decide to sleep instead.
what wrong with me?!

im standy steady. do my hair and brush my teeth all the time now!!!! JK
anywaysi bought some new glasses and braided my hair, and i personnally think i have a chance at a normal life. need to stop eating so much junk food. but its soo hard.

Everyone says im pretty. i want someone to say im fine or gorgeous. Is that selfish or vain? I make sure my hair is always neat and i have at least mascara and lip gloss. Im also trying the whole im in college so why do i have to look cute? look. can i do that even though im not in college? Its worth it, its much better than what i was.