get my shit together

Every time I think I should make an entry about this goal, I think about my other goals, like maybe once I’ve got them all done, this one will be done too. That makes me think I need more goals.

I was just reading up on other people who want to get their shit together, and one person said that she almost stopped having this goal because it was her most negative. Huh. I don’t think of it as negative, necessarily, though I suppose there is a chiding nature to it, but mostly it just kind of makes me smile. It’s almost like a Zen koan for me, like, hey, no matter what, man, I’m still just trying to get my shit together.

Tangentially, though totally related in my head, I was waiting for Jack to make coffee this morning and I was admiring our refrigerator (it’s quite nice really, and I don’t think I’ve ever really given it its due contemplation) and I had this violent realization that, like, I OWN that refrigerator. I’ve owned this house for almost a year and a half and it just now occured to me that THAT’S MY REFRIGERATOR.