be a better husband

We’ll we talked about what I did and we are trying to work it out. I really, really, really want this to work. Sometimes I think its getting better and then WHAM I feel she had enough of me and its all over. I’ve said I’m sorry so many times and I’ve been changing the way I am. However, If I’m really busy with work or just need some “ME” alone time on the computer I feel she thinks I’m not interested any more and I’m going to leave. It’s the furthest from the truth. I want to make it work. I know its hard but I gonna do what I can to make it work.

Man I really, really screwed up and I really hurt my wife today. I feel so terrible and I wish I could fix what I did. I don’t know why I do stupid things like this. I hate myself so much right now. This all could have been avoided if I’d just talked to her about how I was feeling at the time.

I only wish that she can forgive me and understand that I did not do this to try to hurt her. I was not thinking! I love her so much but I may have blown it this time…

I really feel that I’ve become a better husband. I’m not getting as mad all the time and have learned listen more. Not 100% there but I’m getting there.