stop staying up so late

well i have been trying to start getting ready for bed by 10:30 so that at 11 on the dot i can go to my room and read a little instead of getting sucked in to the news or other 11:00 shows. i’ve been doing a little better but still end up getting to bed closer to midnite. i’m going to keep trying to move it a little bit earlier every day or at least every week. it’s so hard tho. i’m definitely a tv addict. it’s a nice distraction from worrying about everything i have going on in the world.

i have been trying to read before bed rather than watch tv – it is easier for me to stop reading knowing i can pick it back up tomorrow, than to turn off the tv (those damn “when we come back” cliffhanger commercials always get me). it’s just making myself go to my room and start reading is still so hard. it gets to be 10 and i think i need to start getting ready, at 10:30 i will go brush my teeth etc. but then 10:30 comes and i think ok just 10 more minutes. last nite i finally started reading at 11:15 instead of the usual 11:45. of course the book i started, i have not been able to put down! i will have to go back to reading magazines so at least they are short articles and there is an endpoint at any time. i’m really going to do this… i’m so sick of being late for work and not having time to make breakfast or relax or get exercise. but every week i “fall off the wagon” and say “next week i will start getting up early every day.” we’ll see…

well after reading some other posts and remembering when i used to stay up until 2, 3, 4am… i guess i have made some progress since now if i am still up by midnite i usually start freaking out and make myself go to bed. having an early-bird boyfriend has helped; before i met him i was still averaging midnite to 2 am bedtime and getting up around 10 or 11. now i am rarely up past 12:30 and up around 9 on weekends. i do really miss sleeping late on the weekends but i guess it’s good. i do really need to start getting it under control tho, i never get enough sleep and there is so much i could do in the mornings.

i have always been a night owl. i really want to be one of those people who goes to bed early and gets up to go to the gym or run errands or whatever. especially now that i have later work hours. so by the time i get home it is too late to do anything, yet i have hours in the morning before most people go to work where i could be productive. every day i swear i will go to bed early but then i find something i need to do online or some show i need to see. i try to ban myself from using the computer past 9pm; sometimes my office calls needing me to finish something (today it was at 10:45 so i knew to let tonite go). i got dvr, thinking, now if there is something i am watching and it’s bedtime i can just record it; now i’ll be recording it yet i will go watch in bed swearing i’ll just watch for 5 minutes… yeah right! anyway i am really goin to try now, starting tomorrow!!