get my license

Last night, I listened to my hypnosis cd for the first time in a long time. It’s weird, but I even catch myself occasionally having legitimate thoughts of “I can do this!”

Who am I? :)

I need to actually try backing out of the garage and/or pulling into it soon. That’s my next logical baby step. Will write more…

Last night, I went out to the garage by myself with my set of car keys, and just sat in the driver’s seat.

I buckled myself in, and turned the key enough to turn the radio on (it was actually on the CD player- so the song that came on was ‘Enjoy Yourself’ by the Jackson 5! So, I took that as a good omen.) I brought my lavender scented oil out there for further calming, but I actually felt pretty good sitting there, I have to say. I did some positive visualization and like a child, I sort of pretended I was driving. It might all sound strange, but I think it’s a huge improvement for me. After living with this phobia for 15 years, it’ll be nice to be free… more to come.

I listened to the cd once so far. I need to do that more.

I practiced in my mind last night (lol) while Jason was driving us home. Sounds silly, but I consider it progress because I still had to think about what I would do at different times and how I would handle certain things.

Will keep at it, even if only in baby steps.

I underwent my hypnotherapy today. I think it went well—hard to tell just yet, but I will continue to reinforce it with my cd she gave me to listen to.

Stay tuned for updates!

I got approval from work to take 9/29 as a personal day for my hypnotherapy, so now I just have to make sure I have a ride there. I’ll probably check with my Mom first. It’s in the morning, and then I’ll have the whole rest of the day to myself!

I made progress today for the first time in a LONG time. I went to my consultation for my hypnotherapy. And I think that even though it was just the consultation, talking through stuff with her helped a bit.

My hypnosis is scheduled for 9/29. I’m thinking positive. She’ll give me cd’s and other tools to reinforce it, too.

More updates to come.

I made a major leap today that I’ve planned on making, but was scared to do. I made an appointment with my hypnotherapist today! It’s set for 9/17. I am nervous but confident in the process. First, I have a consultation (the ‘therapy’ part, so to speak, where I talk to her about my fear and the details about it). Then she sets up another appointment for the hypnosis.

If I can conquer stage fright, and live alone despite my anxiety with that, and be a Mom… well, I can do this too, right?

I have made NO progress on this despite my best intentions in the last several months. I have decided that once we’re caught up on bills, I will make an appointment with a Hypnotherapist to overcome this phobia. She helped me VERY effectively with my stage fright issue, and I think this is the logical next step so that I can practice without such paralyzing fear. Ideally, I will schedule the appointment in September so I can get some good practice in before the snow hits.

Deadline: 4/18/10

So, I summoned the courage to ‘schedule’ a driving lesson with Jas, and then he picked me up late from work and we were expecting company, had to clean the house, and eat dinner, so… we post-poned it until next Thursday. He also said that he didn’t know where to take me, but we figured out a place now.

I finally found my permit (I knew it was on my dresser somewhere amidst a clutter of to-do lists, clothes, and ‘lip chap’. :) The good news is- I have until April of 2010 to practice and decide if I am ready for my test. Seems so daunting, but I am going to take it a step at a time.

After our trip, I am going to have hubby give me a lesson on a Thursday- for 15 min. somewhere where there’s not many cars/people at all. I will log my time so I can have something measurable.