Put God First

Anytime I find myself thinkin bout the past,

I’m gonna send her a blessing.
Think good thoughts.
Pray for her to have good health and happiness.

“if you’re going through hell… keep on going!”

this has been THE rough patch in my life. and it’s creating a ripple effect. my beautiful daughter is having a relationship problem and she is handling it the SAME WAY i do/did… being broken, lost, anxious, and tearful.

i feel kinda like i’m drowning, and pulling others down with me.
don’t want that.

and i’m not livin in the moment. i’m not doing what i should be doing. seeking god’s will for my future. instead, i’m hiding, and looking for comfort through distraction.

i’m tryin to force myself through this, when i should be just feeling it. and experiencing it. and working out the lessons, which i don’t want to know anyway.

i don’t wanna face it.

Since I turned my back on God 9 years ago, I have made a mess of my life. Well, I surrender! I want God back in charge of my life.

Too late to save my marriage, but not too late to save my life.