Be a more patient mother

for me this isnt something i can accomplish it’s something i have to work on maintaining. i do really well sometimes and not so great others but i just work on staying consistant with it. my kids seem happier now than they have been in a couple of years so i feel i must be doing something right.

Well so much for patience for today. How many times did I blow up at them today? I just don’t know what to do after the 5th time they ask me the same question. Can I go to Aunt Hilary’s mommy? Hey mommy can I go to aunt hilary’s? Can I? Can I go? Please, it’s not fair mommy, I want to go to aunt hilary’s! Your so mean, I hate you! And then after reasoning with the child for 5 minutes about why I don’t want her to go I scream “Because I said so and if you ask me again I’m gonna whoop your ass!!!!!”
So much for being patient. I’ll try again tomarrow.

My children are the most resiliant and chin up kids I’ve ever seen. On my youngest daughters last birthday we didn’t have any electricity and she had a fun time on her birthday anyway. Or at least she made me think she had a good time. They have gone through so many changes in the last year. We went from living in a big beautifull home with thier father to being crammed into a little tiny apartment. I don’t work and we are living off of child support which isn’t that much. It’s been so hard for them. And yet with all they have been through I’m so quick to shout at them and threaten them and punish them. I hope to become the mother I once was. Carefree and funloving. Thats what they deserve.