trust that everything in my life is just as it should be..

i’m so frustrated with everything right now. i just want to get away from so much. i feel hopeless about what i want most. maybe just a down day..

..maybe i am stuck in a place that is uncomfortable to make me really pay attention to something. maybe i have been hurt to give me more compassion. and maybe these things will make me choose different directions that lead me to what i am looking for or to what i am really supposed to be doing. and even though i can make my own choices, perhaps there is an inner guide or blueprint that directs me to certain paths and i shouldn’t stress out so much about choices and disappointments. maybe something amazing is just around the corner, and maybe not.. maybe this lifetime i am to learn certain things that might not be my first choice to experience. and all of that is just as it is supposed to be.

acceptance and peace, and working with what i have.. this might be the hardest goal for me

meanwhile i am listening to caroline myss, “the call to live a symbolic life”. it is pretty interesting so far..