Connect more with family and friends

so far, I had one tea date last week, and one tonight. I’ve decided to make an effort to be social, to go out more, to actually invite someone to do something. Tea in the evening is easy, doesn’t take much planning, and can be scheduled with a degree of flexibility. What did we do before cell phones and texting??? Now I can make plans for the evening and firm up the time as the evening progresses, it’s wonderful! Also, I think it is important for me to get out of the house so to speak, more often. I love my alone time, but it really does help boost my mood and self confidence when I spend time with friends. It literally makes me feel better, about life, about myself, it’s therapeutic. So, I congratulate myself for making good progress in the the beginning of 2009, and with plans to continue casting out tea date invitations, as well as inviting friends to walk/hike with me, and hopefully finding a biking club to join to meet friends to mountain bike with.

My friends ended up having their flight cancelled, and so I got an invite to Christmas dinner :)

she’s agreed we might meet up for tea if our schedules work out! I”m excited, a little nervous, but I really want to get back on track with her and clear things between us, and it seems she does too.

as for R, she didn’t respond to me, and I’m letting her alone for now, I think she must be hurting, and I”m not the one who can console her…. It doesnt feel good to hurt someone close to me. But maybe now we can rebuild our friendship without her thinking we will get back together…

Had lunch with an old friend on Monday, have plans to see another friend on Sunday, had a conversation for an hour with my cousin over the weekend, talked to my great friend from college last night. Regularly emailing, mom, brother, and dad. All is well with the co-workers. Feeling more social. All is good. As the depression lifts, this is just me getting back to my old self. Thank God! It’s nice to see the perky me resurfacing.

to friends I’ve been out of touch with. realizing my depression has been holding me back. I keep waiting to feel better to reach out…but I think I need to reach out to help me feel better. I’m making an effort.

with my good friend, it’s great to talk, even though I feel blah, good friends still love me

from college. we ran into each other on facebook, turns out he had a huge crush on me in college, and never gave me any clues. He’s married with kids now, but he gives me so many compliments, I can’t help but eat it up. It’s also the safest form of flirting as it is harmless and going nowhere except that it soothes my bruised ego, which I am working on building up a bit. I also got a text today from a dear friend who I have been out of touch with for about four or five years. We had a falling out of sorts, then made peace, but never really talked that much, and now we will reconnect again. I never stopped loving her, I’m happy to have her back in my life again.

I feel tired, and I feel embarrassed about my dysfunctional relationship and the fact that I still haven’t moved out. But, I need my friends support. I made a dinner date with mk for next week, and hopefully will hike or visit with aa this weekend. I also sent two emails this week to other friends I’ve been out of touch with. I need to keep consistently working at this to keep my support system. My coworkers at work are very supportive, and my family loves me unconditionally those things I am grateful for.

I haven’t seen him since last year! It will be good to go up for a visit. I’m also trying to get my mom to plan a trip with me…perhaps in March. have been calling my brother more often. But my close friendships have been neglected as I’ve been feeling in a low rut of sorts. I feel a bit at times that I don’t want to talk to my friends until I’m more cheerful or at least excited about something, but truly I shouldn’t wait that long. So, I will remind myself of this goal and try to reach out to my dear friends.

and am happy to message my friends and post my photos there for them to see.