make the most of my 30s

my mom, was so kind to remind me, that in 15 years I’ll be 50!
that makes 35 seem like a whole other place. Can’t wait to see what happens in the next 15, should be quite entertaining!

I seem to be ramping up the flirting. this is a good sign. Signaling that I am moving on, recovering, coming out from under depression…. all those things! I would like to take the next few years to date around, and just seek out fun. No more heavy duty, emotional roller coaster relationships, enough already!

I’m just coming down off an amazing hiking weekend in mammoth. I’m so in love with the mountain air, and the stars…..... oh the stars sang to me! Looking at the stars was so intimate, religious, awe inspiring, no words for those stars! Feeling so damn good after pushing myself physically. thinking I’d like to really go for it for the rest of my thirties, biking, walking, hiking, jogging, climbing, dancing, everything!

I’m single, educated, financially self sufficient, not in debt, healthy, strong…..seems like a good time in my life. How can I make the most of my mid-thirties, or rather the next five years…..??? I’m chewing on this question. Travel comes to mind. There is so much of the world I have yet to see. I would also like to go diving again! I would like to get into amazing shape! I want to climb mountains and have muscles! I want to have an adventure, and maybe some romance? dare I hope… Keep up my friendships, let my friends and family know I love them. I would like to make peace with things, be content/accepting/grateful/and generally in a good mood. I think that is the one thing that will make the biggest difference in my life, thirties, forties, fifties, whatever age. To get a handle on the monkey mind…..I believe I have a goal of taming the wild horses of my mind.. Maybe they are untameable, but I could still try to put them in a pasture, right? I think all of my 43things (or 35 things rather) are pointing me at this, to just see the beauty no matter what. To be married to amazement…..

Well, I’m not sure how well I am getting this “thing” done. I’m 34 for several more hours. But someone reminded me that this year, 35, I will at least be removed from an unhealthy relationship, and honestly forging ahead with an authentic life in the best way I know how. I am open to learning, I am humble, I am thankful for my courage this year and finally facing the fear! I think that sitio was right when he wrote last year that fear is never a good excuse. That has been my hard learned, and still learning lesson this year. That said, I have glimpses of the strength I’m gaining through this year. And, my career is getting better, which has been unexpected and blessed! I actually love my new marketing position and have been recieving so much positive feedback from the staff, my peers appreciate me and see my good qualities. I couldn’t have planned it better, a small miracle to “like my job”.

Birthday gifts to myself, sex and the city dvd’s, a new tv to watch them on (which was shipped this week and I think I will pick up tomorrow or the next day), a bottle of my favorite splurge expensive wine!, and a bottle of decent french champagne!, coworkers taking me out to dinner tomorrow night, and a girlfriend who will indulge me all weekend I”m sure, okay, feeling more excited about the bday tomorrow, all that said.

out to be very cutting edge! very rut-busting. I’m continually thrown out of the nest, and time and again, I ask for that very thing!

Reflecting….. I think I am making my best effort to learn and pay attention. I do not feel wise, but I am working on increasing my awareness of life and myself. This continues to be an important goal to me.

thank you to all who have posted comments about this goal of mine, and thank you for the cheers too~! my favorite, and contemporary poet, David Whyte, writes that “just starting the conversation is the only work you must do”. Any small thing in my life that I can do to “open the conversation” is progress and drawing energy towards my goals and dreams. I love having other people join in and share their particular point of view. I think that is the beauty of this site and the internet in general. That I can tap into so much more of human experience! Namaste.

I just had my 34th birthday. and I’m living and working and trying like hell to get it all to balance…... but I still have the sense that I’m caught up in the hamster wheel. in my credit, I have been very good about taking vacations this year. I’ve had one vacation per month since January. But just wanted to cast out this question and hear back from any 43’ers about successes you have had in making the most of your 30’s!

I’m not sure what this goal actually entails. But I have a sense that my 30’s are a pretty cool time in my life. I have an appreciation for what my parents did for me. I finally get it, how hard they worked to give me my childhood. I am no longer rehashing my childhood, I am finally able to look back and see all the wonder and greatness of my childhood. I am also, more self aware, painfully so at times, of my strengths and my many weaknesses, I am humble and bold! I see my beauty, and I also see my first grey hairs, and beginnings of sagging skin. I want to see the profoundity of this time. I know, in the future, I will have memories of what I am doing now.