Pay more attention to my appearance

I am due for a haircut, perhaps an eyebrow shaping, want to try an eyelash tint, a pedicure. I also want to find a cute sweater for fall to add to my wardrobe.

Wow! Today, I actually noticed people looking at me and smiling. Usually I’m so caught up in my mind I don’t see it. But today, I guess I was looking good. First off, had a great hair day, what a miracle!!! Second, wore blue, always makes my eyes stand out. Third, kick ass banana republic slacks, I can’t look bad in them, they just work for me! Fourth, wasn’t crying today, that seemed to be the icing on the cake. Thank god, I seem to be in emotional recovery for the moment. Think the PMS is relenting also.
I think getting new clothes has helped me with this goal. I still am trying to wear eyeliner more often, but the good fitting clothes are really doing most of the work.

I’m definitely wearing make up a bit more. I even bought eye liner. And I just got some new facial creams and serums to combat wrinkles! what a girlie thing to do. I have irish skin, so I need all the help I can get. I think I need to work on the hair next. I have great hair, but don’t do well at styling it….Perhaps I need some easy accessory like a barrette or headband that could help me. Realistically I am not going to start blowing out my hair, and I don’t think I need to do that for it to look good…...something to ponder. I also got some new shoes this weekend!!! They are so cute and of course terribly impractical, but I think that is good for me. That’s part of this goal is for me to let go of all my practicality and try to look cute a little more often.
And that reminds me, that last friday night, we went to disney hall to see a friend play with joanna newsom, and I wore my velvet dress with black boots. I looked tres chic! that was a successful evening of going out and being prepared.

this is still something I need to get better at, but I have been wearing make up to work, and trying to think more about how I look rather than just being comfortable. although< I have a sneaking suspicion that I will eventually just go back to prioritizing my comfort over appearance. I suppose I can consider this an experiment. My hair has been looking pretty good lately, without much effort on my part. I had a facial yesterday….... but still need to go see a dermatologist about some of the sun damage spots I have noticed now that I”m in my thirties… what else. Got two new cute tops to wear, and it does feel good to wear them. and have about seven bags of old clothes to take to goodwill. out with the old and in with the new.

my friend I just visited, told me I might have better luck with men if I got breast implants. Well, darn. Isn’t a padded bra good enough. Don’t answer you guys. I don’t want to know the ugly truth. Besides, I care more about joggind and hiking and not having surgery to do something like that. I have a great figure, but am more athletic than bodaceous. Seeking sporty guy I guess. In the meantime, planning on another brow shaping appt when I get home and then I’ll do my own maintenance. Have been consistently wearing blush, lipstick and mascara. i think I might also get a flat iron to straighten the frizzy hair a few times a week and wear my hair down.

how much time and effort is reasonable for primping. (and let me qualify this by saying, I was raised on a farm, by a mother who never wore make up) To this day, I never did figure out how to use a curling iron or blow dry my hair straight. The darn thing is, when my hairdresser blows my hair out straight, people love it, they say I look like Courtney Cox. I always get so many complements when my hair is done and I wear more make up. But, it goes against my natural inclination, and it feels like alot of work to get made up. I think the make up is easier, but the blow drying, that is a tough one. I have also tried, and it is so time consuming and never comes out as good as the hairdresser. If I had infinite time and money, I would just go to the salon several times a week. This is why celebrities look so good, they have the time and the money…. I know I’m rambling here, but thanks for listening! The other component, is that I work in a hospital, and at times my job can be quite strenous. So it does not lend itself to me being all primped out at work. Then after work, exhausted, work out, tired, again not looking my best. Then the weekend, tired, exercise, cleaning, not dressing up. Perhaps I need to create times or excuses to get dressed up. So, I’m resistant to straightening my own hair, I don’t want to pay anyone else to do it either. The make up avenue seems the easiest route and one that I may actually follow through with. As for the hair…...not sure where to go with that one. And just because I’m totally rambling, I had one other thought on this topic. My good friend D from college, went through a bit of a make over after college. where she went from being low maintenance like me, to basically full on styling her hair everyday and pretty much always wearing make up. And, she then met her husband and is living happily ever after (sort of). I feel like if I could just get myself to do my hair more…

If I were one of the spice girls, I would definitely be Sporty, not Posh. Should I just embrace this? Or get over my resistance and try to girl it up? I mean look at all the press Posh is getting and do we ever hear about Sporty anymore?

my coworker D, is mainly responsible for this. she assures me that this will make all the difference. the man in my life thinks I’m crazy to do this, let alone pay for it. but here goes… I have my appointment this saturday at the “it” place in Beverly Hills for eyebrows. I’ll report back as to whether it was worth it or not. In the meantime, my brows have been growing out for three weeks and they look very furry to me, but no one else has even noticed a difference. Just goes to show, I’m most often, the only one really paying attention to the details of my appearance. But I continue on with this goal.

and I’ve been trying to keep lip gloss on hand at all times. also, just wearing a cute pair of earings seems to give me a little more zip. I’m trying. But I’m really still a tom boy, farm girl at heart…....