appreciate what I have

I’m feeling better than ever, I’ve emerged from grief and depression, and it is more and more clear to me, the glory of being single. I thought of opening a new goal, of listing all the reasons I love single life, but then I thought I could just put them here, under appreciate what I have!

I love being single because:

I don’t have to cook for anyone but myself
I don’t have to put away the clean clothes
I don’t have to pick up the dirty laundry right away.
I can listen to what ever music I want to at any time I want to
I can sleep on either side of the bed.
I am greated by myself each night when I get home from work, and when I walk in the door I say to myself “welcome home sweetie!”
I can sleep what ever times/hours I want
I can hang up cheesy pictures
I can sleep with my teddy bear and no one makes fun of me.
I can put pink sheets on the bed and be as girly as I want to be.
I don’t have to share the bathroom!!!!!!!!
I can leave my art projects out without putting them away for as long as I want to!
I can be in what ever mood I am in, and it is okay.
I can RELAX!
I can feel what it feels like to take care of myself, and it feels good!
I can go out dancing and act like a fool, and enjoy it!
I can flirt like crazy, whenever the mood strikes me.
I can wear lots of make up and not feel slutty.
I have the always open possibility of being surprised.

Being single, I have had so much love enter my life, in unexpected ways. I have been supported and encouraged by the universe and all the little details of my life. I am worthy and I am loved.

Yay! I am happy, finally, and it feels so damn good!

i am grateful for this life I get to live
I feel blessed to have health and energy, and a mind
I am grateful for friends and family
oh so thankful I have a steady job to support me while I figure things out, learn to relax and have fun.
I am ever so grateful my kitty is getting better and keeps the best company!
i am grateful i have the capacity to learn, love, and forgive.

today I have had such a great day in terms of my work schedule being very flexible. I’ve been able to run errands during my work day. It’s a great feeling, and so much more relaxed, it makes me really love my job! Also, my cat is such great company, I’m so happy to have her back home with me. She really is a sweet companion. My messy apartment feels like home now that she’s here. I also appreciate that I have enough to provide for myself and meet my basic needs. I am very blessed, and it feels good to acknowledge it. Also, I am feeling more and more solid in myself as a single person. In fact, I’m starting to understand that it is a Good thing! I like my own company, and I feel proud of myself for following my instincts and making an effort to follow my heart.

I feel like running out of the building at work. I am able to set my own hours, and I am doing a lot less physical work compared to other jobs I have had in the past. I think once I take a weekend away, the little things won’t bother me as much.

Today, we threw a party for our patients. Family members came, staff members came. We had activities and exercise groups throughout the morning. It was a big success! My coworkers teach me alot. I am learning about dealing with different personalities, people I like, ,people who drive me nuts! I get to see humanity in the raw, the aging process is in front of me everyday. I want to use that more, to appreciate my youth and vitality, rather than to fear the impending doom of old age. My friends email me, I am loved by my brother and parents. I have the cutest cat who really relies on me for food and water, and for that she follows me around and is always happy to greet me at the door when I come home. I drink amazing wine on a regular basis, I’m going out to great restaurants frequently. My boyfriend loves art and is helping me learn more about art and culture. I’m healthy and in good shape. I am at a financial best, not currently paying any rent and earning more than previous years. Yet, I continually raise the bar for myself. When I get a raise, I automatically start thinking about how to get to the next level. On one hand, that is what makes me human, striving to achieve more….but can I still have some pause for contentment, for reflecting on the progress that has been made. this is a challenge for me. To pause, to consider where I have been, and how I got to where I am at now. Just stopping to write this helps. Let me not forget, I went to greece last month!!!! My first european travel! Also, I set foot in NYC for the first time last month! during my layover on the way to athens. That was fun. It’s just so great to experience places that I have read about, thought about, heard about from friends…....and me, being from a small, farm town, finally finding my way out into the grand, and cosmopolitan world. It’s all out there for all of us. Yes, it is good to stop, and consider all that I have.