not let work stress me out

Been exercising or tring to do things for myself after school. Especially after an especially hard day. I hate to ask the question – can I stick it out? Or better yet – can I learn to love my job?

New job coming up! Teaching high school and directing ASB next year. I’m really looking forward to it (and I don’t remember really honestly looking forward to school for a while). Enjoying the remainder of my time with the little sixth graders. I wonder if I’ll even recognize them when I have some of them in my classes again in 3 years.

It is taking a lot of work these days to keep the negative, exhausting and hopeless thoughts and feelings out of my mind. It’s just apply, apply, apply and wait to hear back from someone jobs for next year. I think I’m driving my boyfriend crazy. Teaching is tough, let alone the energy required to apply for jobs (especially if some of the jobs you are applying for are at your own school!). I just keep telling myself that it is going to happen. I’m just not sure when or where. It will happen.

Received my pink slip last week. I shouldn’t be suprised, because I have been a temp. employee, but I was hoping it would come with a “we’d really like to have you reapply.” It did not. It didn’t come with anything. I don’t know if they want me back or not. Meanwhile, I am applying for another district job teaching 5th grade. It makes me feel better that something else is out there. It is so tough to find a teaching job in this area!!! Otherwise, I left school behind today. OK, I accidentally left all my stuff at school, but still. It will be a lovely evening.

I came down with the flu this week and was out all week. And you know what? Nothing happened. My sub report wasn’t aweful. Not too many angry emails went missed. And I had the chance to heal and recover from the puking and fever. I am important to my job, but it will go on without me. (and my kids were glad to see me back =)

Planning ahead and getting enough sleep has definately made this week better than last. I have fewer issues to take home with me at the end of a day.

Between teaching middle school kids and dealing with their parents, its tough to leave it behind at the end of the day, but that is just what I am working on. I am trying to get whatever I can done at school so when I get home, I dont’ have to think about it all. This is sometimes easier said than done, but I’m working on it!