Believe in the possibilities...

I met ex-co-worker yesterday.

She said to me I should quit the current job and be independent, because I have enough skill and I can take care of mom.

Umm, that is completely true.. Of course I doubt about my skill^^

Umm, what to do next..

I just thought, “children feel fear against hospital, so, how can I make it interesting existence?”.

This is my idea.

The hospital is designed like a castle appeared in RPG. Doctor wear costume like a king or hermit. Then he/she saids “Welcome braver! You are the last one to conquer the evil dragon(illness or injure)!”. Then he/she give him/her a card saids “the road to the helo” or something like that.

What I want to say is that if I could transform going to hospital into doing a game, it makes children feel fun.

Is it funny? Of course I do not think so.

in japan, today is the “black illumination day”.

during few hours in the night time, we turn off lights to think about the energy issue or the future of the earth, or feel the comfortable atmosphere.

company’s lunch meeting was held today. In the meeting, we, younger group talked with manager group.

to be honest, I have not known the other colleague, because I had changed my job once.

so, I was so surprised when I heard an colleague’s saying that “I am just doing what someone said to me.” for real? I thought here is a kind of R&D. I could not believe it. to me, it seemed that he confessed he is not capable for the current position.

anyway that is his business not me. But it is also truth i felt sad noticed such person was around me..

Of course, I just do my business with my own will!

Umm, I should consider more and more about this small piece.

But my intuition tells me something such as this is a trigger that make something good happen in our society.

I will incubate this idea during this few months. That is why I do this job.

Today, I went drinking with my colleagues. So, I think I can say this sort of things^^;

In the matter of fact, I feel difficulty.

Is it possble for me to teach him the importance to study hard and think seriously how to solve problems?

Anyway I will do the best!

between the other team member.

Basically I think the diversity of members is very important in my team. But I also think here is rather extraordinary. Some do not have will, some only want to protect their position.

Of course, I know to lead them to the right direction is the one of my tasks. But sometimes, I wonder if they want to achieve our difficult goal when I hear ther chatting(Of course chatting is not problem, but its contents).

Ummm, for the first time in many months, I have vented.

I will move on tomorrow!

with my best friend yesterday.

He said I am too nervous about my own situation, there is no connection between my past and my present situation. Umm that is true. As a matter of fact, my family has been destroyed, but I and mom can live peacefully. That is enough. So, I can find someone to love again in the future.

The sunset of my hometown was beautiful.

I am weak but proud. That is why I did mistake lots of times.

But I do believe I will achieve something till I die. Without the belief, I think my life is meaningless.