find rinaldo,the only person i ever liked enough to be together

hes flying out of me. i hope that my road croses with his one day. i dont love him or anything, but he did mean a lot to me in the past and not having said a word to him hurts. goodbye for now, live instead of exist in your life….

i know i was crazy abaut him, but i dont really feel the way i used to feel anymore. its like hes just stuck in me. without any real feelings. i have to find him now, and talk to him abaut it, or he will be in me forever.

some people say he was a teen crush. some of them say i loved him out of emptiness. how could i love him? he was short,fat and blond,the opposite of me. besides,i didnt even know him. people can say all of these things. it doesnt change the fact that whenever i saw him, i couldnt stop looking, and whenever i heard his voice, it was like i never wanted to hear anything else. i remember feeling these things. i was in love, no matter what anyone says. this will not change. hes in me forever, even though i have new relationships and everything. with him it was different, and it always will be.