remember - Life is short, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the drama, take chances, and never have regrets, because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted

I’m happy to say that we are doing much better as a family and that I like myself and my husband once again. LOL! Life is still a huge adventure. So many things going on. It is easy to get caught up in the drama of it all. I’m choosing not to. That old adage “I may not know what the future hold but I know who holds the future.” is giving me a lot of peace. I think for now I will concentrating on the things that I can do myself. I can love my children and adore my husband. I can plant the seedlings in the garden this weekend. I can continue to explore ways that I can make some money here at home. I can continue to be a blessing and support to my friends and family. I can leave the rest to others and trust that all will work out just the way it is supposed to.

Wow, funny how hard this hit me when I read it. The last couple of months have kicked my ass emotionally, spiritually, financially and physically. It has been one thing after the next and it has been non-stop. Slowly but surely I have changed from a positive person into a negative person. My heart has turned black and I have been angry. It all came to a head last Friday night. Saturday morning I looked at my husband with tears in my eyes and told him: “I don’t like myself, I don’t like you and I don’t like the kids falling asleep every night to us arguing. I am not going to do this any longer. Either we can learn to talk to each other nicely or I won’t talk to you any more, period. I had an epiphany the other night. I may not be able to control your attitude but I can control mine.” So, I’m getting some help. I’m reading some books about finding my strengths and having a weekly counseling session. I am getting something done everyday that needs to get done. When I get rattled instead of striking out I am asking myself what it is that I can do to make the situation better. I have asked my children for forgiveness and apologized to them for the way I spoke to their father/grandfather and promised to do better. I am reminding myself daily that happiness is a choice and that at one point everything I do is exactly what I want. I want to be a happy and positive person again. That is exactly what I want.

I saw it listed on my friend Dana’s list and had to adopt it. Every time I see it I am uplifted.