be in control of my emotions

can one ever really be in control of one’s emotions. And if one actually controls, then are the emotions felt even real? Aren’t emotions supposed to be pure, real, honest, an unplanned reaction to the subject in question?

Today is a day of contradictions i suppose.

What I am aspiring to do seems impossible. But what makes anything impossible? Only the individual.

I refuse to control my emotions, not allow myself to feel. I believe in the whimsical nature of emotions. However what i can do is control what i do as a result of what i feel. That seems almost impossible since my actions are ruled by my feelings….