I’m not doing anything wrong! I’m not lacking in anyway! What i seemingly do not have only makes me into the individual i am! It then becomes my eccentricities. My assets and non assets…those are the things that create my perspective. I do not need to become anything for anyone…I do not need to chase perfection. Therefore if something about me does not please someone, it really isn’t my fault! maybe this is the furthest I’ve gone to self denial, but how ever will i know right?..
I was punished my whole life. Probably not to the extent to which other children were punished, but i think that it was unfair and too much.. what i was exposed to. Maybe that’s what everyone thinks… That they had too much…that what they’ve been dealt is too much…
I can’t feel sorry for myself, yet at the same time i cannot obsess as to how i could have altered the way things turned out…
As such i need to stop punishing myself by obsessing! i never saw the point to punishment so the question really is.. Why am i still pointlessly punishing myself?......
