right now i am saying no to one person, so i guess that i am kinda’ doing this right now.
A whole discussion about using came up as a result of it.
I find it hard to say no because i always see how siple it is to do something for someone rather than all the obstacles… however when it comes to doing something for myself i only see things in reverse….how depressing right?
Well recently i’ve actually been trying to work on that….
I did art for two days hile still smoking and it felt so good, but then i jumped right back to complacency and here i am again.. mentally constipated.
Am i really fucked up in the head? Sometimes i feel that way. I just let things happen to me. Again as a result of another messed up theory. i believe in “just being” however, can two individuals just be without one encroaching on the other’s space? Without one having to make compromises for the other? or do both parties actually…is it possible for both parties to actually equally compromise but in different ways with both [arties actually recognishing that they are both compromising equally without a thought of “i am doing more” entering and taking over one’s thought pattern?
Are we humanly capable of that?...
how is it possible to say no to someone, something, oneself if you hold true to the idea of just being?........
AGAIN! .........COMPROMISES!.......
HOW DOES IT ALL WORK?
When are the lines drawn and who draws the lines and what couses the lines to be drawn?
Are questions and answers just like….can it be equated to desires and satisfaction?.....
SAY NO!........
