I actually did shave it off. I did it under intense emotional strain, so its creation caused a calm kind of ease. I think the phrase is CONTROL, hey we all need it. Shaving my hair off re-established it. Its gonna grate me to look back on this and remember why i did it, to have a reminder of sheer constant regret and pain. Regret is too clean a word for this, lets say disappointment. But the hair is great, very liberating.
it is basically about feeling good about yourself but at the same time its about control. gone are those days of careless abandon. my new modern state of paranoia now demands that i know exactly what my hair is doing, from a young age it became clear to me that if anything good in life was gonna happen it was going to happen from my crown. stubbles good though, in my words, it gives the face character. dismiss any thoughts of my shaven head. to say it was shaven would be a lie but to say it was neat would be closer to the truth. hair makes the face, the face makes life… erm something along those lines anyway.
