lose 100 pounds

So, I recently stopped eating meat. It happened so naturally and so accidentally, I almost didn’t notice that I’d made a lifestyle change. One day I was making curried greens, and I thought to myself, “Yeah, I could do this regularly.”

I actually like it quite a bit so far, though I’ve only been meat free for a few weeks. Most of the dishes I can make are pretty tasty, plus it’s easy enough to experiment with them. I haven’t weighed in recently, but I may soon to see if it made any difference. I still have to count my calories because apparently quite a few vegetarian dishes are kind of high fat.

Any other veg’s out there?

I’ve been gone for a bit, but I’m down twenty pounds, took a brief holiday hiatus (come on, I only get these foods once a year) and managed not to gain this year. I’ve learned some things along the way.

1. Lentils are a good friend. You can put them in pretty much anything and are tasteless till you add stuff to them. Plus, they have a really great, nutty texture. I use them in place of meat a lot of the time and they make me happy.

2. You can put spinach in pretty much anything. Eventually, the nutrients add up, which is important when you’re trying to lose weight. Vitamins man, don’t want to be malnourished.

They were two good lessons I think. I’m trying to find an activity I can do for exercise that my toddler can tag along for. Anyone have any ideas out there?

I’m wondering if it’s ok to cheat if it’s something you really, really, only want every few months.

I think I can get away with an ice cream cone, I was really good for the rest of the day.

I had fruit, milk, and coffee for breakfast (the coffee will kill me before the ice cream does!), lunch was…well, out of desperation (I didn’t get a real lunch break today) some oatmeal, Dad made a delicious meal of chicken breast with tomatoes, mushrooms and a sprinkle of mozzarella, and then the ice cream cone.

Admittedly, the ice cream did perk me up a bit. Is that bad? And, I didn’t get a giant hot fudge sundae as I am prone to do during ice cream lust.

Oh my god this is awful on so many levels but I recently noticed I wasn’t eating as much as usual. I tried to figure out why, seeing if it was something I could keep up long term. Then I realized that since buying my french press I’ve been drinking delicious cups of coffee instead of snacking.

I’ve replaced comfort food with coffee! Now I have to make sure I’m not all coffeed out every day and try not to go back to snacks in my effort to quit!

I’m thinking about joining weight watchers but I’m not sure how much it costs. At that, I don’t know how well it works. Any thoughts?

After a rather tumultuous time I’ve decided to get back on track and stop sitting in self pity. This is all part of my overall plan just to get that skip back in my step, gleam in my eye if you will. I have yet to get back to the gym in awhile, but I’m watching really closely what I’m eating, so I hope I’ll do better. If you guys are willing to take me back, I would really love the support!

My Stats
Weight: 240
Goal : 140

I’m alive, and…ok I suppose. Things went from bad, to a tiny bit better, to worse, and finally apocolyptic. Eric is currently in jail, he gets out tomorrow, I don’t think I want to see him anymore. (Long story short)

I fell off the wagon for a bit, but I’m trying to hop back on, things are just so crazy now that he’s gone. It’s hard to get to the gym, he always watched Olive when I went, now I have to rely on their childcare or ask my dad to help. I don’t think he minds, but I’m not sure.

I’m thinking of taking yoga, I hear it’s great for stress. I’m also seeking counselling because I never imagined a depression like this. I’m trying to climb out of it, but it’s really difficult.

It’s really hard being alone, and I wish Olive had a better father, and I wish I didn’t look like such an idiot when people come across this chapter in my life. Because I do look dumb, I had a kid with a guy I clearly shouldn’t have trusted with a goldfish, let alone human life. People can say “learn from your mistakes” all the time, but that one really was a given…and more of an accident than a mistake.

But uh, weight loss, yes! I’m starting out a little better than I did at square one, but I have a lot of progress to make and less resolve than I had two months ago. I’m going to get back on this train though dammit.

Thanks for the support.

Thanks for all the support on my last entry, it means so much to me!

Well, Eric and I are trying to work it out again, it’s all a bit messy but we hope that with counseling and work we can figure this whole mess out.

On a very good note, today I was surprised to step on the scale and find that I had lost another five pounds! They really seem to sneak up on you huh? So now I’m down ten altogether.

Starting weight: 240
Current weight: 230
Goal weight: 140

Thanks for all the support. In this time of uncertainty it’s really nice to know that someone’s rooting for me, even if it feels like the whole world is falling apart around me. It’s really hard right now, but I really hope we can make it, and if nothing else, that I can make it. Baby steps, in weight loss and in life I suppose, is all it takes.

Take care everyone. You all mean a lot to me.

Eric, the love of my life, my fiance, and the father of my daughter, is leaving me. I know this doesn’t have anything directly to do with weight loss, but it hurts so bad I can’t even see straight.

It came on so sudden. I wish I knew why he didn’t love me anymore.

Screwed up tonight, and now I feel totally bloated. That’s a good thing though, because it means my stomach and habits are changing. I was really good for lunch today, even though we had Wendy’s I checked out the nutrition information and had a delicious salad and cup of chili. It was somewhere around 520 calories.

Ugh, and then dinner came and I didn’t have anything made so I said, “Ooh, corndogs” and now I feel like poop. Corn dogs are fair food. Not food food. Ugh. My poor, poor tummy.

Eating healthy is hard! Does anyone remember the good old days when it was as simple as just eating less? Now you have to make sure you’re getting the right balance of this and that, measure out your portions, make sure you’re not eating anything that doesn’t completely derail you diet, make sure you’re getting enough fiber.

It’s such a pain in the ass!

At that, you read all these magazine articles where they give you tips to lose weight, and all of them must assume you have tons of cash to blow on health food. Flax seeds? Where do you even get those? I can’t afford to shop at a health food store, and my family wouldn’t appreciate it that much anyway. It’s ridiculous!

So I’m just going to do the best I can with what I have. I buy whole grain pasta and brown rice, but I also buy mac n’ cheese and white bread (the whole wheat varieties cost A LOT). Calorie counting will get me far I think.